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moved!

2008-07-16T09:29:00.003+08:00

sorry people.
but I have moved to wordpress.
I find it soo much more convenient although the skin is very sucky and disgusting.

this blog will remain as it is though. Skali I want to move back here as there is more skins =)
But that is highly unlikely of me to move back here.

yeap =) see ya peeps there!

first entry today

2008-07-15T19:50:00.002+08:00

Okay.

To start off, I am going to open a livejournal blog soon.
It is NOT accessible to everyone.

Those who wants to view it, make your own livejournal account and add me. Please use a username that is easy for me to identify you. And did I mention that only those from the age of 16 to 20 as of 2008 is applicable for this? Well, yes. I don't want to add strangers. And if let's say your username is really weird, MSN me. I will add you instead.

If you are younger or older than the stated age,
please DO refrain from adding.
I won't at any situation add you!

There are some people who are sneakily reading my blog.
I am fine with that.
But since I know that, I am not able to blog out everything that I have constricted in my heart. Sometimes, I am afraid of my own words because I know it is hurtful without being told.
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I am doing my FP report now.
Halfway through it. Hopefully I can complete it by today and submit the report to Frankie himself. Going to the gym tomorrow night. I realised my stamina for running has hit an all time low. I can only brisk walk/run 4 laps and nothing more than that. And include this - it took me 20 minutes to actually complete it! For the love of tian! 1.6km at 20 minutes!

And I lose my breath EASILY!
Before I even manage to complete half of the first lap. The medicine is really working at it's best!

Carried 14kg worth of weights and I feel like my muscle are screaming for help! Did the one for the back muscle using 18kg. I can do a complete SPLIT now without any pain!!
Okay I cheat la. I eat painkiller half an hour before I did it.

I need to do fletching by Wednesday as I need to shoot on Thursday.
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Updating more later.
I need to rest my brain. Studies has already sucked out 3/4 of my life.
I want to shoot! I want to have a punching bag! I need to dance!

Basically. I need a life.

plans

2008-07-14T23:13:00.002+08:00

This will be my schedule for the coming weeks

Monday
Shooting 1 set. Before or after school depends. Gym at 7:30pm. Home by 9:30pm.

*Tuesday
Gym in the morning at 8:30am to 9:30am. Shooting at 3pm 1 set. Home by 10:30pm.

Wednesday
Gym in the morning or at night. Home by 5:00pm or 7:30pm. Revision on all modules.

Thursday
Shooting 2 sets. Home by 10:30pm or later.

Friday
Gym in the morning. Home by 6pm . Revision on all modules. Sleep by midnight.

Saturday
Shoot to my hearts content. 4 sets. Home by 9:30pm.

Sunday
Shoot at 9am - 9:30am. Home by 9:30pm.

Tuesday is an ass-y day I have to say. Anything unexpected can happen on that day. Therefore I can never know what I can expect on that day. Just received a mail stating that COMT is cancelled! SEE! Then due to my absent on Friday because of my crash computer - Thankyouverymuch, I had to attend a makeup maths lesson.

I need to remember to hand in my math file. It is WAY overdue. And to study the latest topics.

HEARD THAT CM test will be held on the 8th of August.
COS will be on the 17th week which is 3 weeks from now!

From what I see in the calendar, CM and COS are both 3 weeks from now.
Therefore, chances of us having a holiday 2 weeks earlier is 90%!!!!!!

I am definitely looking forward to that man!
During those time, I will shoot everyday like nobody's business!
Hit the gym as though I own half of the shares!

Apparently just now, I tried 50m and I bent 2 arrows!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

I am like half heart pain and half not. Cos basically, it's cheap. It the arrows were to be 1st hand one, I will perhaps cry right now. Anyway, none of the arrows hit the target board. Paiseh sia.
Nevermind. I am going to up my poundage soon. From 26 to 30 I think.

Somehow at this moment, I really want to win something in Pesta.
I am hungering for some victory.

I sound so animal~
Gggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

Night~

pictures2

2008-07-14T09:28:00.000+08:00

I was browsing through some of my unpost pictures in my entries. I know this is like way overdue but these are the pictures from my melbourne and bali trip. This is just a small portion of it. The rest of the pictures are god know where it is.

First 10 pictures are from australia. The double decker is the place where I stay in melbourne. It's a backpackers place =) Stayed on the top bunk! This place, eventhough there are like pubs nearby and the girl that slept on the bottom bunk is an ex-prostitute, it is still a generally safe environment!
The very first picture is the place whereby I stayed while at the Great Ocean Road in Apollo Bay. The third picture - I took it while on a helicopter.

Then the carve out names.
Hehehehehehehehe.
Skali my cousin have been here before! Who knows!
He has been to almost everywhere!

Second last picture is while in Bali and I only had the look-like-burberry baggage at the starting of the trip. The big trolley one is from australia while the big rectangle bag is bought in bali for only SGD9!

Okay. bye~

lazy

2008-07-13T21:30:00.002+08:00

I want to blog today
but I am lazy.
Tagboard reply - I will do it tomorrow during class time okay =)

Night~

sunny day

2008-07-12T21:09:00.005+08:00

Today has got to be one of the most fantastic day ever!
Firstly, I got back half of my form. I have totally lost it on Thursday - on that later.
Then I had ROTI PRATA at JALAN KAYU - it was great I tell you!
AND lastly,
NO E-LEARNING!
Tian la! That is the greatest news EVER!

Okay... now. First and foremost this is going to be a long post. I think. I have alot to type now.

Okay. Sorry to Jolene, EngHui, Jerfen, Alvin and Gang.
I have NEVER dine with you guys before. I am sorry for being hmm... an unfriendly little prick and in class always showing that stupid black face. You guys are a bunch of lively and noisy people who are fun to hang out with but you know, being the ONLY MALAY and did I mention GIRL in the whole IT cohort, it was a tough fact for me to swallow. And yes, I did dread the thought of coming into the course because of that.

But you guys are really nice to me even though I have always been this sickening prick!
I really have to thank you guys for it and yeah ... I can see myself opening up more =)
Although not much but yeah ... changes do happen at least.

Psssttt - It took me 2 and 1/2 years to open up in secondary school!!
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Alright.
I will have 10 supports for every black list!

The above, if you don't understand, then forget it.

Okay. So on Thursday, I was told by a senior that my anchoring point is going towards my right and pressing my nose. I believe it but when picture was taken and I saw it with my own blind as bat eyes, I got a little upset.

NOPE!
Nothing about the senior that took the picture! I swear man upon my Al-Quran!

I was upset about my form. I realised my release and follow through is getting all wrong again as I wasn't consistent. I can feel it myself without others telling me. My bow arm was fucking weak that it totally destroys my mood on that very day. And to add that my anchoring point is all disastrous! It just add on to the troubles on my shoulder.
But at the same time, I am freaking thankful man to the seniors that point out my mistakes!

Well, I was feeling rather down on that day. I even have thoughts of quitting!! I know this is fucking pussy of me to even think about it but yeah ... my low point is DAMN low for me that I feel like stabbing myself with my own arrows!

TO HUDA, MY CLASSMATES AND SENIORS!!
IF I, SITI SYUHARAH SUPARDI, EVER THINK OF QUITTING ARCHERY, I WILL GIVE YOU THE PERMISSION TO SMACK MY HEAD!! - not so hard okay.

Enghui ahhh and Huda ahhh ... I know you guys are looking forward to this man!!
Jolene! You can like call me whatever man to get some senses into my head again!

And to add on. I do not have the feeling of talking to anyone on that day especially when I shoot because I wanted to know why am I shooting like shit and what I needed to correct. I wanted to try and solve it myself then because I am impatient and I cannot wait for sunday to have CJZ to help me. I was in a mood at that time whereby I can shout my lungs out at anybody that got on my nerves.

I just kept telling myself that I am a junior.
That reason alone is enough to stop me from shouting.

Okay anyhoo... on the way back home, I told this to Yishan and thank you la babe! Somehow, your words made me feel a hell lot better and I have my confidence and fucking BIG EGO back with me!! That was when I decided that mulling over what is over is not going to make me improve in any way at all!

That was when I decided to like take things into my own hand.
Since I cannot run, I decided to do something about my arms and decided to do 50 push up a day - girl style. I am trying to tone up my stomach again like what I had in secondary 2 - I had 2 abs then! - I know unbelieveable but yes! I had 2 abs! I am hitting the Bishan gym again soon.
So that when I go suntanning, at least I need not be ashame of my flabby stomach.

So yeap... that is what happen on thursday.

Today, somehow, I solve half of the problems =)
Only left with my body moving don't know which way la. 360 degree I think.
Then my bow arm and my release plus follow through.
Oh and my shoulders too! And I need to learn how to push and pull!!
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To ALL of my NON archery friends.

I AM REALLY SORRY!

Due to archery, I have to forgo some of my responsibility as a friend. I may break promises. I may cancel a meet up. I may be too busy with archery to think about anything else. Basically I am sorry.

But these are the sacrifices that I have to make in order to get to where I want. This is the first time ever that I am trying to pursue something that I really want. I hope you guys will understand. If you guys don't, I will understand though the reason.

To HyungJin. I like you too and I know what you are hoping for.
Please stop and don't continue that hope.
I may be a disappointment. I do not even have time for my prayers now let alone my friends and what makes you think I have the time for you?
I like how everything is now. Please don't make this hard for me alright.
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And. yes.
In archery for the juniors for the female, I only think that Wen Ting is my competitor.
As for now. She is enthusiastic about it and is making vast improvement!
Therefore, I do see her in my eyes as the only one worthy of being my opponent.

I know what I typed above sounds fucking cocky and I am NOT saying nor whispering nor thinking that I am the best in this sports arena.
I am lazy to reason out. If you want to think that I am boastful and whatever, so be it la.
As long as you are freaking happy about it.

For the guys. As for now it will be Hellsing and Ekang.

And Zijie man! Wah Piang wei!
His back muscles sibei the hen cool sia!!
I am going to hit the gym and carry as much weights as him man!
Yeah right~ like real only
BUT since he pulls 60kg for back muscle (right?)
I will aim and strive to pull 30kg of it!
Currently, I can only pull like 15kg I think.
I think it is 15kg. If not it should be 12kg - if there is every such thing.

For biceps, he is pulling 20kg on the bar thing.
I can only pull 10kg. Nothing more than that for now.
Not in the mood to be bulky for now la.
Maybe in 1 years time I will!!
Girl Power man!

Sometimes, I wonder if I am born in the right gender.
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Wahsey! My post damn wordy sia.
I just don't get it why some of you bother to read it through la!
Got so much time is it?!

Search for a dream and pursue it!

I have mine now and I am not saying it is all smooth sailing.

But it worth every fucking moment of my life!

sick

2008-07-11T20:42:00.004+08:00

I am running a fever now.
My nose is totally block and I am having sore throat.
I hurt my back because I tried doing backhand flip just now and WOW - I did flip and but boy it hurts so much! Great. Getting myself into this shit when tomorrow there is archery training! Went to see the doctor in the afternoon for my checkup and he gave me the disapproving look when he saw me tottering around in my heels.

I just told him that girl shall always remain as one.
I was suppose to go to Orchard with mommy after the checkup and everything but it was all canceled! Because, the doctor said something about me not taking appropriate care of my stitches and everything - can see mhe? I thought like once the stitch is over, it is over? I wonder what kind of stitch he uses...
From what I have heard, there are different kind of stitches. Those use for surgery to normal tear to plastic surgery are totally different.

So yeap... here I am wondering.
Broken and fed-up because I wanted to shop badly.
Huda and Leong! Sunday after my training want to slack at United Square Starbucks?
We can like chat up and camwhore there. From what I heard, starbucks is the best place to do that.
My treat =)
HyungJin. I am not going to skype with you tonight. I am not angry.
I am just feeling sick. If you want to tell me anything, just call my house.
And don't sms my 92***234 number again. You are bursting my bill!!
Yishan! Roti prata la babe at Jalan Kayu tomorrow!

That is all for tonight people.
I actually wanted to post up pictures of my wardrobe but I have yet to upload it and I also wanted to type out my testimonial which I find it rather fake!

But anyhoooo....
NIGHT!

emo-ing

2008-07-11T09:10:00.003+08:00

OH MA GAWD! OH MA GAWD! OH MA GAWD!
The belly stud that I want is GONE!
No more! I want it so badly! And like I have the money now to splurge on it and it is totally gone!
Alright. Nevermind. I shall search for my dragon stud. If that too is gone, then I am really going to cry!

IT IS REALLY GONE!!
I want to emo now. Later than I update more.

i forgotten it's july

2008-07-10T11:50:00.002+08:00

GOD!
I HATE E-LEARNING!

Seriously. I am lost as what to do. The MeL system is always going fuck up and haywire on me that I feel like slapping it! I am stuck at home waiting and waiting and I don't know for what shit. I need to go to my secondary school pretty soon to get my testimonials and HelLo to Baboo Singh!

And I have yet to bathe. It's 12 noon. And I feel icky and at the same time I want to dance to the music that I am listening. I am being random. HyungJin bought for me a stupid shirt :
"I Love My Boyfriend"

And I just went .... what the hell!? Since when am I attach? I told him to get it exchange or he will get it from me. I think he might get for me the "I love archery shirt" ... Maybe. This guy is full of unexpected nonsense! Wetseal is having an unbelievable sale and I am going crazy! Oh and Bossini! I just love their t-shirts! They are insanely plain, nice and cheap selling at just SGD10!
I am going to buy 5 shirts maybe this saturday =) Yesterday I went shopping with Huda and I spent like SGD30 on 3 t-shirts costing SGD10 each! I am really a vulture when it comes to SGD10 t-shirts!

Then Huda paid for some stuffs at Guardian using coins that amount to SGD6!
It was damn hilarious! I just went on snickering thinking how stupid the cashier looked when she saw those coins! Ahhh and talking about Wetseal, I saw some stuff that I really really like. It's those plain t-shirts! In singapore, those cost a mighty SGD10! I think I will get it shipped here because - the US size are generally bigger =)

And I am mid-way to cleaning my closet. I took some pictures of it. I think people are going to be shocked when they see it! Because what I wear to school, does not reflects anything about what I have in my closet!

I need to bathe now. If I am not tired and feeling pretty energetic, I will post up the pictures of my wonderful beautiful wardrobe =) I need to sort out my CD rack too... it's pilling with tons of DVD and I never manage to sort it out.

Going to watch parental guidance 2 first afterwhich to Beatty.

Hello! bye!

2008-07-09T22:28:00.003+08:00

I have been slacking.
Okay. Let's put it this way. I am NOT slacking. BUT I need to priotise from NOW!.

FAMILY
STUDIES
FRIENDS
ARCHERY

Yeah. I have to start priotising ESPECIALLY on studies. So this week was e-learning and it WASN'T PRODUCTIVE AT ALL on my part. Reason being, I kept on thinking that EVERYDAY is either SATURDAY or SUNDAY! And being weekends, I will be having my archery sessions.

It sucks really when you miss out on certain stuff. Like for example, not knowing that you need to mark your attendance in the discussion board. Alright. Maybe she did mention it before, I don't know. I don't seem to recall it. I thought that the discussion board was only for hmmm .... discussing what you don't understand and I am not the kind to really ask unless I really cannot find the answer to it after HOURS of thinking and digging through my brain.

And, I have the habit of appearing offline. It is not a bad habit but I just love to do that. Maybe because I have this unwanted person that wants to chat up with me everytime he sees me online. And now, for that, I lost my attendance for Connie's monday lesson. Great syuharah. Offline is the way to go! Yahoo!

and thank you to Jolene! You are my saviour man for telling me about FP!
I slept after the stupid gym session and my arms felt like breaking off!
And ENGHUI AR!!!!..... i forgotten what I want to type.

Anyway. tmr there will be maths and fsp.
I am going online tmr man. I mean on mel. not on msn.
Forget it. What has past, let it pass by.
I need to check out what I am suppose to do for CM and FSP tomorrow so that atleast i will prepare myself mentally and physically for it.
I need to get my testimonial tmr and also for archery training tomorrow.

Ciao. I am sleepy. And step up 2 really rocks my socks!

I am not updating tomorrow. I think

it hurts very much

2008-07-07T23:41:00.002+08:00

i have typed out a really long post.
but i decided not to post it here.
i need time to reflect on what is going on.
it is really troubling me badly. i might not be posting anything in this blog in the meantime.
i need to digest what is actually the cause of it all. why is it happening and what cause it to happen.
yes. when i have a major problem, i like to lament over it.
infact, there was one time i had a huge problem that i went emo for almost 6 weeks so that i can think through everything.

this time. i think it is my fault. i am sorry.
the fault lies within me. but you know how i am don't you.
when you have already forgiven me, you should know what is needed to be done.
as for me now. i am going to bed and emo.

night.

it hurts when people tell you to stop being a fake when you are not.

down bitch!down!

2008-07-07T17:48:00.005+08:00

Oh god! Oh god!
I am bloody in furious right now!
This fucking BITCH! That BITCH!
She is like urrrrrgggggghhhhh!!!!

I really feel like slapping her! Although I don't understand all the things that she is saying, but I feel really mad at the sight of her!
DAMN YOU STUPID BITCH!
YOU ARE GOING DOWN NEXT WEEK!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Wak kiau. Damn la. That bitch is like so irritating that I have the urge to slap her and kick her! If I could, I will strip her and pin her to the target sheet afterwhich I will shoot her!

Bloody! You stupid Anna!
Arggghhh!! It pisses me off everytime I watch Fated to Love you and that conniving bitch say something that is like "meaningful" and that idiotic CunXi will go into a state of illusion and starts agreeing to her! Next week man! Next week you big bitch! Cun Xi is going to find out the truth!
Wahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!
I am going to highlight those in my organizer and make sure I will watch it once it is released in english sub! My Tian sia! I got so angry, I almost wanted to flip my just repaired laptop!!

This drama is making me go insane.
Haiya. Smiling Pasta still the best la. Going to watch Gokusen now. Later, I am going to catch Full House =)
Later~
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I just realised one thing.
All the guys that I like have 1 thing in common.
They have single eyelids/almost non existence double eyelids!
Basically slit eyes. I just don't know why. It is not my preference truthfully to be told. I find that single eyelid is .... eeeeyyyeerr!
Simply not nice.!!!!
But yeah ... these guys somehow look adorable with those pair of eyes! And to add on, when they are bald, somehow, they just look dashingly hot! They make guys with emo hair look like skunk!

I need my Sentosa! I know I am dark enough. Like I am BBQ alive. and if I were to put on my golden bikini, I will end up looking like a crap ass! But then, I need to even out my tan! It is bloody disgusting! Van! I need a tan! We need a sentosa outing soon babe! Seriously, I think if you were to see my tan now, I bet you will laugh till your guts spill out!

Disgusting.
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I was tag by theresa. It's a 100 question! I shall spare others from the insanity of doing this unless you are out of your mind then by all means - go ahead and do it. It's long okay.

01. What have you been doing recently?
chatting on skype with hyungjin and shooting.

02. Do you ever turn you cell phone off?
yes. last time and long time ago when I fight with hyungjin.

03. What happened at 10.00am today?
shooting arrows in school field with yishan =)

04. When did you last cry?
yesterday night la! stupid drama!
I emo la. That is why everytime cry.

05. Believe in fate/destiny?
not really.

06. What do you want in your life right now?
currently? beat stacy's score! sorry ar stacy =)
And hyungjin's blackberry!

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
hood if I am wearing one. umbrella so leceh!

08. What’s your favourite thing to have on your bed?
my smelly pillow! oh god! I had it with me for 2 years plusplus.
I think it is the 5th version of my smelly pillow! really smelly!

09. What bottom are you wearing now?
pierre cardins black underwear?
I am in my room now la!

10. What’s the nicest text in your inbox says?
"Grandma says she misses you alot and to come Japan during the holiday"
from Hyungjin. I want la. damnit. but no money man!

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
complicated? isn't it already like that on it's own?

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
not right now. but I am going to wear my father's boxer soon.

13. What was the last movie you caught?
oh god! that was eons ago! chocolate maybe?

14. What are you proud of?
that i can shoot? i don't know. i have high confidence but i have nothing to be proud of.

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
i just deleted all. -___-"

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
99 times I love him - fated to love you ost.

17. Do you have any nicknames?
oh god! countless. hot air balloon, shoe, sahara, shhooooo, sssshhhhhhh, shorty, ketot, syyuuu- iii, booby/boob-sy, shibai, psycho .... i cannot remember others.

18. What does your last received text message say?
"I am in Akihabara now" - basket -__-"

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
midnight.

20. Are you currently happy?
yup =) happy happy. but at the same time tired.

21. Who gives you best advice?
i don't really listen to advice.

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
whipped cream is an ass! they taste like crap!

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
Last night? - Hyungna! Miss her~

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
yes. and it's a secret. sssshhhhh!!

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
Hyungna and her grandma =)

26. Do you wear toe socks?
yup! they are so comfortable!

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
HyungJin. He is going to burst my phone bill man!

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
hahahahahahaha! yeah. that was when a guy rejected me!
I think I shocked him by making the first move!

29. What annoys you most in a person?
talking unnecessarily! and also showing off what you do not have.

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
hahahaha.... yeah~
it is an unexpected someone =)

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
cocaine? the hell!

32. What is the colour of your room?
disgusting green. or is it yellow? I want to change it to red but mommy say NO!
so next will be either pure white or lime green =)

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
if the contract includes

won't go to hell.
direct entry to heaven.
it is not my sin to kill him.
i will not go to jail.

34. Do you believe in the saying ‘talk is cheap’?
duhhh! but i don't know the reason why.

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
hyungjin. he made me suffer by making me sleep on the cold floor in the living room!

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
hyungjin the night before he went off.

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
who kiss who? i kiss nobody!

38. Do you have a life?
my life is dead.

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn’t?
god. choi choi! touch wood man! i don't want to answer this

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
erm? profile song? i like many song. now addicted to those chinese drama songs!
they are super catchy!

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
i seldom dream. i sleep so soundly everynight =)

42. Last time you smiled?
when i get to see someone =)

43. Have you changed this year?
hmmmm. somehow yes? more talkative than before.

44. What are you listening right now?
an jing by jay chou

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
hyung jin. actually skyping la

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
open la.!

47. Is there a quote you live by?
countless. but i will tend to forget them.

48. Do you want someone you can’t have?
if cannot have for what i want? i won't go after a caught fish.

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
yeap. but i suck at it.

50. What was the worst idea you’ve had in week?
i want to sleep and sleep? i don't know what you are trying to ask..

51. What were you doing last night at 11.00pm?
watching indonesian drama. skyping. and surfing the net.

52. Why do you blog?
this is where i start to change. blog is a venue for me to be myself. in secondary 1 and 2 when blog was non existent, i will shout and be violent to a classmate everyday without fail. i made countless of enemy needless to say.

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
nope =) i don't want to get rejected again like last time!
hahahahahahahahahaha!

55. Who always make you laugh?
hyungjin, hyungna and many more =)

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
malay, bahasa indonesia, hokkien, french vulgar and numbers in thai.

57. Favourite website?
dramawiki. latest drama sypnosis will all be out here!

58. What's your middle name?
my full name is siti syuharah supardi.
therefore my middle name is syuharah.

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
school for IS and out shopping =)

60. What do you think you are like?
stubborn and straight forward.
beating around the bushes = sissy

61. Who will you choose to die with??
die with? if i like the person, i don't want him to die with me.
kanasai! I am not so saddistic alright.

62. Where have you been today?
school and gym and home.

63. What game do you play often?
i am into drama. no time for game right now. and my nintendo wii is spoilt =(
thankyou botak!

64. What are you missing right now?
my nintentdo wii! and blackberry!

65.If you’ve to choose between friend, family and Bf, who will you choose?
family. do or die that will be my first priority. followed by friend and lastly boyfriend.

66. What are you doing right now?
skyping with that hyungjin

67. What primary school?
westlake primary and first toa payoh primary

68. Name 3 colours that you like?
black, gold and red.

69. What emotion you like to show?
_|_

70. What is your life to you?
full of obstacles.

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
blog it out. if someone anger me like to the max, you watch out.

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
msn? aishah, yishan, theresa and hyungna.

73. Who do you admire most?
park sung hyun fullstop

74. Which month are you born in?
february. the month of holiday!!

75. How are you feeling right now?
happy and tired and happy and happy and happy =)
because hyungjin got me my arashi album!

76. What is the time now?
8:16pm

77. what kind of person do u think the one who tagged u is?
nice person?

78. What colour did you use to dye hair?
have yet to done it. but if i ever do, it will be au natural brown =)

79. Why are you doing this test?
because i am bored

80. What do you do when you’re moody?
killing the person that cause me to have mood swing.

81. At which age you wish to get married?
before 28.

82. Who is more important to you? Boyfriend or friends?
Friends. no matter what.

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
last day ah? go japan. i want to die there.

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
NOBODY!

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
I believe in the sky turning green.

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
perfect my form. be a successful women without a man as backup.

87. What is your goal for this year?
get into an archery competition and win something.

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
i have no comments about this. i haven't met the right person therefore i cannot say anything.

89. What feeling do you love most?
contented.

90. Do you really think its global warming now?
yes but i don't really give a damn.

91. What feeling you hate most?
when i feel tired and sleepy.

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
ABODEN!
i am nothing without their constant support.

93. Do you believe in god?
yes. i am a muslim. although not a pious one. but yes. i believe.

94. Who cares for you most?
my family, my friends and hyungjin's family =)

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
my passion. nothing else is more important than that other than my family.

96. What will you bring when you fight?
to begin with. i don't fight an unnecessary cause.

97. What have you regretted doing in your whole life?
nothing thus far. i am pretty fine with the way things are now.

98. What would you feel if everyone no longer cares for you?
I feel sleepy~

99. What if your stead two-timed you?
i have answered this before. it is about the same question. won't bother answering again.

100. Do you have feeling for him?
who him? crush? yes la that is why call crush right. hyungjin. yes la. he my ex sia!

101. What you want to be when you grow up?

A FAMOUS ROCK STAR!!!

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
night~

crapping la.

today

2008-07-06T20:23:00.004+08:00

Okay.
Firstly, my handphone is fine =) You guys can call me now especially Leong! I miss you la bitch!

Okay then. I watched Absolute Boyfriend complete.
And I cried and cried in the last episode. I really really cried. And thanks to that, I felt sleepy while shooting. It was damn sweet and sad. Fuck man. I should not have watched that show. I just knew I was going to tear to whichever guy she chose and she chose the robot which I like =) Then the robot die!!! Fuck man! Why do every heroes have to die!?

Why man?! WHY?

Cab to Zhenghua CC cos Daddy got something on so he cannot send me. Hui Fang, Yangzhi, EKang and Zijie was there already. Danny came at around 1:oopm plus plus. Went to eat at the Kopitiam. CJZ made for me my string on the spot =) I am using only abbreviation. So that whatever he help me with, he won't get into trouble of getting known.

Shoot the shoot. Aiyah kanasai. I don't like how I shoot today. It was really (**@$%&@#$%!
My follow through is shit. My draw is shit. I cannot extend my shit arm. My bow arm is shit. My strength is shit. My back muscle is shit.
Basically everything is shit la =/
I think I need to retrain my form. I don't want all my current state to be permanent. It will be tough to change it later on. So yeah. I am going to the CC next week too. CJZ is going to help me give pointers and everything. Like how he help me with my anchor point.I want to buy these skirts! I have a thing for long skirt! Somehow, I feel more modest, less vulgar and more female! I want the red,pink,black,orange,dark blue,brown and dark green.
7 colours! But it cost like SGD15 each.
Cheap but I like too many colours. No many la.
I think I will buy the red black and blue first? I see how la.

Okay. Yesterday shoot the shoot the shoot. Aiyah. I can shoot 30 meters better now. Got 2 yellow. 2 red and 1 black. It does not really matter really. Because that basically means my grouping SUCKS!! Practice man. Practice. I think I am going to start shooting more 30 meters. And also 5 meters for form and grouping. Need to read up more on archery and stuffs.

I know this is going insane. But as at current moment, I have the passion for it. When I am all high and fire about it, it is better if I do whatever it takes to get me better now. I get bored with stuffs easily. Like REALLY easily. So when all the juices are gone, I will still continue archery and stuff but not as high as last time and I might be a stubborn mule and not change any of my form ways. So yeah....

Ate roti prata at jalan kayu. I tell you. The food is ah ma gawd! NICE!
But then... it is pricey and the place is freaking ulu. So I will go there if someone has a car.
I want a car too! But my daddy won't buy it cos he say it is a waste of money and if he do buy it, my allowance won't ever be the same again =/ But for motorbike - he is Okay with it!
Only now is left with my mom to convince. But then again, who am I to remain good and follow orders? Hahahahahahaha... Even if my mommy threaten to take away this laptop, I will still go and take motorbike license. I am a stubborn mule.
Although I do follow orders but if I have a strong intuition or guts, I will follow that first above anything else.

Okay I need to watch my Smiling Pasta again now!
Reason being I need to be out of my house by 6am tomorrow!
Hahahahahahahaha! Early early. I can wake up. YES I can!!
I need to train on my form with stretchband while watching.
Night peeps!

in a rush

2008-07-06T08:53:00.002+08:00

Alright.
I am going to bathe in a while after this post and off to Zhenghua CC.
I think Ekang, Yanzhi and HuiFang is going to be there =)
I am only training at the palce for like 4 hours max....

Yesterday was fun!
I can only give a summarise of yesterday after I come back from training!
Andand .... my dad wants to buy the Formula one tickets!
I am not so sure if it is still available.
Anyway. Got to run.
Will reply the tagboard later on too =)

oh my tian!

2008-07-05T00:03:00.004+08:00

God....!!
Help me!
The nparchery blog is turning into a whimsical place!
The songs are so .... goodness! I think I'd rather hear to the oldies songs with my g.ma!
Even froggies croaking sound so sweet all of a sudden!

Mozart? Some weird Disney songs? Boys Fall out or up or whatever?!
Yeahyeahyeah. Mute it. But it is freaking irritating to always remind myself to mute it!
Gah! I am there to READ information. Not deafen my ears with songs that erggghhh!

It makes Jay Chou's mumbling sound so much better.

I am so sorry if I am being too direct and blunt about this matter.
But then again, if anyone gets explosive over this matter, all I could day is ...
GET A GRIP PUSSY!

P/S: I am not referring to anyone in particular BUT If you do get mad, then too bad pussy!

Hmmm.... today.
My computer crash at 6am in the morning. My mommy or daddy being smart shut the main power without even consulting me first. Lost ALL my documents. Yes including my WP project that was due today at 5pm. The previous night, I only slept till 4:30am? Just to complete the 10% of the leftover project. Only to my dismay, to find all data lost once I open my eyes again.

No choice. Had to skip maths just to re-do everything!
And I so wanted badly to go there cos I wanted to know how much I fare from the previous test. Went to WP instead. Got pissed with a member because I only ask him to help me hand it in and he don't know and don't even bother to find it out! Do I look like a street directory too?!
I wasn't feeling all that good so ask teacher for permission to go home. Due to that I did not go to NUS.

Yes! I went home! I did not shoot any arrows! Call my mommy if you don't believe!
I even slept so soundly!

My IPod is only coming on Monday!
Motherfucking Apple! Sms me that by today will be delivered!
Kannina! I want it now la! ChaoLan.....!
Grrrrrrrrrrr!~
I am damn unhappy la!

But Yishan, Diana and Aishah made it all up =)
Resting day on Tuesday!!
I haven't got my gems =(
I want to blingbling my arrow tube!

Oh and I got a new Best Friend Forever!
Presenting
John-I-don't-know-your-family-name!
Is it Chiam? I don't know la.
Who else wants to be my Best Friend Forever?!

Oh. And HyungJin has flew off to Japan...
He is coming back to Singapore in 4 weeks time.
GET ME GRANDMA'S ONIGIRI!
And... Get for me the new Shu Uemura lipstick!! I want the orange and green colour!
And I want his Blackberry phone! It's superb to use!
I think I want to pester my mom to get me a Blackberry next year...
Blackberry is the new BOMB! Okay I sound so bloody bimbotic!

Aishah! Bring Polaroid next time for archery training!
I want to get a new Lomo camera! Fisheye maybe.

Oi. HyungJin! You delete your friendster account is it!?
You better sms me once you see this sia!!

Lastly (phew! finally!)
HyungJin aka Botak aka Bitch is not my Boyfriend la.
He is my Best Friend since 14 of February 2008.
But anyway. I cannot help change people's thinking if they insist on him being my boyfriend.
HyungJin. You happy right about this!?
Bloody bitch. put me in a tough spot!
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!
Anyway, he is my BF. Up to you guys la to think up of the definition of BF.

I want to sleep. Shooting tomorrow in the morning. Yawn~
Bye~

initiative needed

2008-07-04T20:45:00.004+08:00

I DON'T KNOW

This sentence is getting on my nerves now.
I mean like. If the answer is really tough to find, I am perfectly fine with it.

But something so simple like where to hand in the paper! Is it SO hard to check it in MeL?
Like your life is on the line?! The project. It was quite tough initially as EVERYBODY has not the slightest idea on what is to be done. BUT instead of reading through the lecture notes or re-reading the questions and doing research on the internet, they can simply "I don't know". Some, don't even bother to read the question paper but just casually say "I don't know".

Do I look like a walking encyclopedia?!
Do I look like a know-it-all?!
Do I look like I can be trampled all over?!

And, if * find the work tough, * will complain about it and kept mentioning "I don't know" like a broken stereo. * even initiate an exchange for a simpler workload. When you get into the workforce, I shall SEE HOW YOU EXCHANGE THE TASK GIVEN!
Giving up before even trying. They expect their breakfast to be laid out on the table in details.

Before the pen even hits the paper, the ink has dried up.

This is the reason why I HATE doing group work!
The first thing that will be out of their mouth is "I DON'T KNOW!"
The word "INITIATIVE". Where is the existence of it?!
You are lucky if you got the right members. I do have my fair share of great group members.

But seriously, for this project I have given up all hopes on it.
Hard work pays off well
What used to be one of my life principle has been trampled on badly.

I really think I should stop hoping. The disappointment is so great that it will be tough to fade it off your mind.

Please give me more individual project!
At least, I can do everything and call it my work.
And I really do take pride in what I do.

Now I am going to my personal blog.
I am going to rant about that one person that makes me feel like I am some kind of an Indonesian maid! And I will make sure that I splash it with red bold letterings!
You make me feel so disgusted with myself for letting you trample all over me!

Also. an archer is going to be in it.

tired la

2008-07-03T22:30:00.002+08:00

I damn tired now.
I will update tomorrow.
I want to watch my drama.
BYE~

happy happy =)

2008-07-02T19:11:00.001+08:00

Okay. I feel so RELAX now.
Must the the magical works of drama.
Just watched Fated to Love you episode 16.
Ah ma Gawd! I seriously love that drama! I am concurrently running 2 dramas at once.
Smiling Pasta and Fated to Love you.
There is still 6 more unreleased episodes of the latter one.

Next week .... E-Learning!
Going for Archery EVERYDAY!
Except for Tuesday. I am going to only take that day off to rest.
I will do nothing that has any association with Archery!
No bow training. No watching of archery videos. No push up. No straining of myself.

IS is from 10am to 12noon and subsequently IAC from 1pm to 3pm.
After that, I am going back home by cab. Catch up on all the manga reading that I have missed.
Watch the anime shana something something.
Watch Fated to Love you episode 17 sub - will be released by then.
Rewatch my Korean DVD - Goong.

Maybe. Just maybe I will go shopping for that day.
It has been awhile since I last physically do shopping with a smile on my face!
I will go to Haji Lane and get my gems so that I can stick on my arrow tubes and spell out "Archery". I need to buy a gold belly dancing skirt. A new pair of heels!
Oh...and a new hoodie!

Holiday is coming SOOOOOOOON!!
5 more weeks babe!! Then after E-Learning week is 4 weeks more!!
Damn. One week has pass by! I need to work hard!

Stacy ah stacy .... 3 more weeks hor to the showdown!
But if I lose ar. Give me face okay :)

Then to Aishah!
Wahsey babe!
Thank you the Thank you the Thank you very much!!!
Sorry that I am such a troublesome little thwart!
And next time we go Ramen Ten okay! My treat =)
And don't say don't want ah. I insist!!
She is my saviour today!
Makashi banget ye! Rasa seneeeeeng skali!

Steffi moving to Toa Payoh sooon!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
Now more fun!
You know. For a primary school friend, Steffi is my longest one that I had kept in contact with!
Like really really keep in contact.
We can like be MIA from each others life for 7 months but when we chat up or meet up, whoa man .... we can continue our conversation going and going and going!
Even Juwita, same primary and secondary, I am not so tight with her.
If there is any Thailand trip, I am sure to call her up!
She is so gun on with traveling issues!
Miss that girl a bunch! Now can have supper and late night hang out with her =)

At last! You are here!!

2008-06-30T23:57:00.002+08:00

HELLO!!!

Want to know where I am now?!

I am in FULLERTON HOTEL!!
I will be here for a night or two =)

Apparently my BEST FRIEND is here!!
He shocked me when I saw him in my house!!
Yup! Hyung Jin is here!!!

Well yeah.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
I am so happy that he is here now!
I am going to tell him about EVERYTHING that has been going on in my life thus far.
From archery to my mentor reading my blog to me passing my maths!

Ah man... I miss this bitch a hell lot!
Hahahahaha!... Man. Maybe I will pester him to get me my Ipod shuffle as a belated Valentine's Day cum Birthday present...... teeheehee....

That bitch shocked me when I was at home.
I got home, feeling all pissed and tired and all the vulgars are like forming in my mind.
Went into my rooms and throw my bag on the bed while murmuring some vulgarities.
Little did I know, that bitch was on my BED covering himself with my blanket!!
Hahahahahahahahaha!! He scared the shit out of me by moving and saying "OUCH!" so loudly when I threw the bag filled with my laptop and it hits on his head!!

I screamed my lungs out thinking that he is a robber and took a hard cover encyclopedia and kept on hitting him! Was aiming for the face so that the "robber" will faint. But I did not know where is the leg and where is the head so I just hit anywhere that I can reach!

Hahahahahahahha!!
Serve him right!
Well, usually when people first met they will ask about your well-being first right?
But HE said this

"OH MY GAWD! WHY ARE YOU SO DARK!!?!!?"

At that very moment, I felt like giving him an uppercut punch on the chin!
Furthermore with those crispy American accent!!
But anyway yeah.... I am going out to have my supper with him =)

And and! I am wearing high heels! At last! The time for me to wear it again! It has been like eons ago since I last touch my 5cm nine west heelsss!! It hurts now after a long hiatus from wearing them.

He is still Botak like before!
And he still smells of that perfume that I sent over to the US from Aussie =)
Botak is only going to be here for 4 days =(
He has to fly off to Japan soon to visit his grandmother....
I miss her tooo!!
Hyung Jin better bring me some onigiri from her!

I have so many stories to tell and also so many stories to listen!
I need to go now. We only have the whole night to catch up on each other!

Because I might not stay over here tomorrow night =(

Not too long ago, I had a small argument with him. That idiot is starting to follow my style!
Okay let me say this. There is this rule whereby I cannot say a word of vulgarities in front of him or there will be some punishment whereas smt smt. In short vice versa.
Then we kinda argue about it and when he was about to lose, he started to talk to me in ..............................................................................................................................
JAPANESE!!!

Like what the hell! He started it! So I just scold him various vulgarities in Bahasa Indonesia!
He don't understand that language whereas I know some of the words that he is talking about ^o^

He was like complaining "Girls, they just don't want to lose! So loud!" ..... the rest I kinda understood but I don't dare give the translation cos it is not accurate.

Anyhoooo.....

I have a picture taken tonight!
But I think I am going to throw it away if he ever develops it!
Because, my cleavage was pretty obvious - his fault!
Okay. I wore a low cut dress - courtesy of Hyung Jin that bitch!
Hahahahahahahahahahaha!

Okay. I need to talk to him now.
I told him to shut up and watch Smiling Pasta while I touch up on my project and blog before going for supper.

Night people~~!

updating soon

2008-06-30T07:39:00.001+08:00

I need to update on my archive and all.
Maybe a new blogskin too.
Till later~
Jana~~!

dick brain

2008-06-28T19:53:00.000+08:00

Okay, I am suppose to blog yesterday.
But I fell asleep after doing further research on css, html, javascript and java.

Training yesterday was insane!
Started shooting from 9am. I stop shooting around 15 minutes to 4pm.
I was suffering from early stage of Parkinson at around 3pm .... hehehehehe!

And thanks to Eddy for teaching me the open stance and how to grip the bow.
It did not hurt me as much as it did during the parallel stance.

Saw an ex-senior: Rasmi.
Man. She is one jovial lady I must say! She can crack up jokes like anywhere!
Had lunch at Alumni. Ahhhh .... I feel like I am not getting along with my own level of friends.
Aiyah. I am an introvert la - I swear I am!

Extroverts often:

Have high energy
Talk more than listen
Think out loud
Act, then think
Like to be around people a lot
Prefer a public role
Can sometimes be easily distracted
Prefer to do lots of things at once
Are outgoing & enthusiastic

Introverts often:

Have quiet energy
Listen more than talk
Think quietly inside my head
Think, then act
Feel comfortable being alone
Prefer to work "behind-the-scenes"
Have good powers of concentration
Prefer to focus on one thing at a time
Are self-contained and reserved

Those that are bold are what I usually am. Those in italic are what I am sometimes and those with no change are what I am not. Apparently, introvert are more .... of me. Like for example, if people do not say "Hi!" to me, I won't bother initiating it first. If I do initiate the "Hi!" first, that means I am in a jovial mood.

Okay anyway, back to archery.
They had this Pinnacle thing organised by X-ventured - the CCA that I wanted to join at first.
There was this guy who shoots with a funny style - no I am not insulting him.
Hahahahahaha!! He do the parallel stance SO BIG that I thought in between those legs got a longkang! And when he shoots, he further move his body forward. Hahahaha! It's part of the race and I must applaud to him that it is actually a clever move!

Okay. Initially, yesterday I wanted to go to my belly dance studio and engage my teacher to teach me a one on one advance belly move. But I end up coming out of school at 6pm! So too bad la.

My dad bought for me some t-shirts and I like them alot!!
Cost him only SGD2 for one -___-"
Anyway, I still like it even if it cost him 90cents.
Only that the sleeves are way too short that it will show my obvious tan line!
I think I need to buy those spray on tan can so as to cover those hideous-way-too-obvious-tan-line!!

Some people in the CCA.
I swear I want to take the arrows and stuck it up their balls! And perhaps another 2 arrows to perhaps stick out their esophagus and their small-nine-meter-long-intestine!! They are such a stuck-up nincompoop with a dick stuck in their brain! Looking down on girls and all like as though we are weaklings that cannot even protect ourselves!

Perhaps the girl in our school are not tough enough but hey watch out!
One day I am going to out-poundage YOU! and when I see you carrying a measly stupid low poundage I am going to LAUGH at you while SPILLING my PERFUMED saliva ALL over your face!! after which I am going to say this straight into your face:

"HUH?! YOU CANNOT PULL AR?! YOU ARE SUCHA WEAK PUSSY SIA!! BLOODY GU NIANG!! EVEN MY GRANDMOTHER CAN PULL LOR!! WAH SIBEI THE WEAK SIA YOU!! A GREAT EMBARRASSMENT TO ALL MALE SPECIES!!"

Yeah. I am mean. But I do mean well. I do not have an issue with people who likes to show their talent if praises makes them feel good and also makes them improve faster. But that being said, do show off in a manner that won't hurt other's dignity and pride! Oh and if you wanna give others a lesson or two, do have the knowledge right and also the skills! You will end up looking like a big loser if have none of those and still have those thick as a pig's ass skin to teach people what is right and wrong!!

My ego is comparable to man's.
but

Thank god! I don't think with a dick!

P/S: I am not referring to all male species. But if you are hurt by this post, then perhaps you are one of those people that I am talking about.

browsing through ebay

2008-06-27T17:11:00.017+08:00

HELLO!!

Okay I am feeling so refresh after waking up 2 hours ago and I went to ebay.com.sg just for browsing. Goodness gracious me!
I suddenly have alot of wants!

I saw alot of game consoles and Adidas jacket that I saw last time when once upon a time, I tried to bid for it and it failed because the auction has close once I hit the submit button.

Okay this is what I saw on ebay.com.sg.
I swear they are really trying to grub some of my money from the bank.
Oh by the way, I have SGD250 now in my in-hand-bank-account.
A miracle it could reach that amount! SGD1250 more for my bow =)
Unless of course, I change my mind and not buy the bow .... then it will be for Thailand trip!

Okay without further ado let me show you what gem I have found in there.

Nintendo DS Lite!
I think you can enlarge the picture.
I just plainly like it because it looks very sophisticated and simple!
I especially like the black and red and the black and red with dragon motives!
Even if you give me a picture of cute kitten or some big eye puppy, I will choose dragon hands down for design base! I cannot get my hands on them though because I am not sure if they are authentic or just China replica and in addition the seller is from Hong Kong.

Next is .....

Nintendo Wii!
I know I have one at home but it is not mine!
Wouldn't it be fun to own the latest one - 2008 version and you can say to your siblings:
"Don't you dare touch MY Nintendo Wii you bitches!"
You have the right to emphasis on the word MY without feeling wrong!

Oh and if any of you intending to buy one, I suggest you guys import it from US. It is MUCH cheaper when you include the shipping - SGD450++. For the local version, it is also using the US version only that it has warranty that only last for a pathetic THREE MONTHS! And you are paying SGD200 odds dollar more just for that! Oh and Japanese version. Don't bother buying unless you want it because it is cheaper as it cost SGD350++. Other than that you have to search high and low for games that is Jap compatible, you have to be of high proficiency level in Japanese in order to understand the game. Otherwise you can fork out another SGD100 odd to modify it so as to enable it to play with US game which will definitely make the US version sounds more cheaper.

Alright moving on ...

JAPAN JACKET!
They made it for Olympic!
I am still feeling regretful for not being able to buy the 2006 Fifa World Cup one.
It cost a bombing SGD120 then and being only in Secondary 3 with no money in hand, I was forced to let it go - I wasn't that close with my dad at that point of time.

Ahhhh.... I like this jacket alot. It brings a lot of memories!

The France!
*I love them to bits and pieces!*
I remember crying so much when they lost to Italy! Because I was a BIG fan of Zidane and boy was I glad that atleast he headbutt that stupid guy! I was really hoping that Zidane will win because it is his final match and wouldn't it be nice for him to exit in glory!! But damn, Italy just have to win!!

I still hate them by the way. Only the soccer team though and that bastard that insulted Zidane!
Hmmm. I break down when the verdict was out. Cried all the way to school. One of my soccer freak friend also cried!

My mom though, rub salt into the wound by cooking pasta on that day.
I did not eat a bit of her cooking that very same day.

I wish Zidane to come back to the soccer scene! I only watch when either Zidane, Ronaldo or Beckham are on the playing field.

Zidane for his INCREDIBLE dribbling and passing skills.
Ronaldo, he is just great! - but no more...
Beckham for his AMAZING curved ball kick! - now, he is just a perv.

So far, for soccer - I only have to salute to Zidane, Barthez -cannot remember the spelling of the goalkeeper for france too and lastly Fandi Ahmad for local.

I am trying to find Zidane jersey number 10 in small size. Well, since no picture is taken, you can jolly well presume that I have yet to find one.

Next is

Muhammad Ali Adidas Jacket!!
I like the above one because it is in black and gold plus it is limited edition!
What I don't like is that, the boxing gloves picture are inside! What is the point of me wearing it when I cannot show the craftsmanship! I just don't get the point.
The latter picture on the other hand ... I have been eyeing since like Secondary 3! I really like it. The quotation especially!
"Float like a butterfly, Sting like a bee!"
Ali's trademark! He is witty, strong, stubborn and brave!
I have watched Muhammad Ali starring Will Smith countless of time!!
Yes. You can say I am also an avid fan of his!
And yes. You can also say that I like boxing because of him!

Last of my research after which I resume to my project is IPod Shuffle!
I have no intention of importing it. But I was just curious as to how much it might cost on ebay with MAJORITY of the sellers selling them at a highly RIP OFF PRICE!
Thank god it only cost like SGD79 in Singapore.
I have yet to get it because, I have been on a saving mode.
Me not eating in school is not part of my saving mode plan!
That is because I cannot get my food!

This is the gold one. and it cost an astonishing and bomb-your-bank-apart-until-you-file-for-bankruptcy
SGD26,000!! - rough gauge because it cost about USD19,000++. Made of real gold mind you.

But still no how glittery, shimmery and shiny it is I will still love my beloved

Ipod Shuffle in RED!
Okay la. I admit. The gold one I cannot afford to show people my new bling bling!
(Isn't it cool? Instead of jeweleries, I show people my new gold in the shape of a small Ipod!!)

BUT STILL!

Ipod Red is nice okay.
The red is nice for Ipod shuffle and nano but other than that, it looks dupe!

If let's say you are tired, stress and your hair is in an unruly manner,

well you can do this:
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Neat right?!
Quite a handy accessory for me!
Since I am the careless one who lose stuff even when at home!

I can also use it during archery! I always don't bring a hairclip along so this can be a substitute for me =)

Okay. I need to do my storyboarding now. Bye~

again. random

2008-06-26T23:05:00.004+08:00

I think tomorrow, I am going to get a medical certificate!
My left arm has bruises and my left stomach is having weird pain.

Not that I am concerned about the bruises - my mommy is.
I am more worried about my left stomach pain. My first time feeling pain in my left abdomen.
Hello to medical center! .... again ....

I am so tired of it man.

Anyway got all my results and I am HAPPY to say this
I pass all subjects!!
*clap*clap*clap*clap*clap*clap*clap*clap*clap*clap*clap*clap*clap*

COS : B+. 79
FSP: C. 63.5
FP: B.
CM: D. 50 =)
WP: B
WP Portfolio: A+

Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
Jolene! I love you more now okay! Since you tell me my marks =)

I am thinking of opening another blog mainly for archery and what I achieve. Apparently, if I were to do that, this blog will be left hanging because I like this CCA so much right now that everyday, I kept on thinking, eating and breathing archery.
But then again. Maybe not. I don't have the time to keep updating 3 blogs at a time!
One is this. One is for venting. One is for archery - (if ever created)
I know. copy copy. aiyah. i doubt it will ever be created looking at my lazy nature.

I miss watching the Park Sung Hyun video! It is my 5th day and counting since I last watch it!

My form has been deteriorating. I just cannot keep my stupid follow through in a consistent manner! Than there is my left arm. ALWAYS bending because I am afraid of getting whack! And also there is my arm which just don't want to twist! How I wish it is a lego! then I can build my arms as and how I want it to be!

And I can hit a board! Without my contacts and specs on! Only with the sight.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
Tyco sia!
I think if I were to do it again. Confirm LONGKANG one!
Stacy and Yishan are damn funny when they rush me to shoot!

My stretchband is calling me! So are my 5kg weights!
Ahhhh. Used to carry those in my secondary school time. In those days, I thought that if I can never be tall, at least I must have the strength and basic fighting skill to overcome my shortness.

Yeah. That is when I start carrying 5 kg weights on each hand 20 times per day. D0 300 sit ups per day. Then 30 push up - I hate push up so I do it when I feel like it. Practice my netball during school time until I am totally worn out. Skip 500 times per day. Walk around the park 30 minutes per day - never like running my whole life!
Not everyday la I do. Siao! Then I learn basic boxing. But I lost it all because I don't fight with my friends using boxing. I just kick whatever my legs can reach.
That was in sec 2 though. Sec 3 lazier and happier me =)

There was one time, I tried to fly kick a friend name Peera during POA - Mrs Lai lesson.
I end up dislocating my foot!! with my bone sticking out but my skin never tear la.
I think Haslina and Baba remember that incident.

Maybe I should start doing that routine again. Only that instead of netball, I use the basketball court - not that my skills are that good anyway since 2 years of absence in the sports arena.

I shall start with 5kg 15 times per day. Sit up 300 - FORCE LA. If don't force and keep saying pain, I feel like a sissy. Skipping - 250. Push up - 30.

Okay I want to sleep now. Tomorrow, I need to wake up early to go see doctor.

My blog is so random ar.
I really don't know what to blog about actually. My brain is quite dead.
Sleep la. Night.

hungry for food

2008-06-26T11:07:00.003+08:00

I have actually given up on eating lunch in school.
I always have cravings for the tamago onigiri from Canteen One but in Semester One, EVERYTIME I approach the store, it is either

a. it is closed.
or
b. there is no more of it.

I am so tired of walking that far and end up walking back to my classroom with empty stomach growling away. I think, every time if the field is not book and I am having 2 hours break or so, I will just go and practice my shoot.

Sometime, I feel so so hungry but when I start eating, I feel full straight away. Maybe it is because of the pills? I am popping pills as though I am popping food into my mouth.

I know. Healthy eating.
But I swear I am just so tired of walking to a place only to end up with no food that I crave for. Atleast at home, if I don't like what my mom cooks, my dad will help me buy one on the way home. In a way, money save.

No matter what. Free food are still the best.
Provided that it taste nice and there is not many chili.

I am a fussy eater. But I try to eat what is available if the situation calls for it unless it totally disgust me then I will go on a fasting mode.

chillll~

2008-06-25T21:33:00.002+08:00

I could not believe it.
I was thinking of it while sleeping too!
Since yesterday night till today's evening nap!

First and foremost, I have divided the WP project. This is the list on who do what:

1. Information Design : Objective/Purpose of Web Site
MiaoJing and Gina

2. Information Design : Target Audience and its Profile
WeiSiong and Justin

3. Interaction Design : Content and Navigation Structure
See the last content of this page.

4. Presentation Design : Page Layout Grid and Storyboarding

One page layout grid : Syuharah

Storyboarding : Everybody – storyboarding for your given assigned website

Subsequent lower level : Syuharah

5. Presentation Design : Specification of your overall colour scheme : Syuharah

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Yup and I have completed my part on the number 3. Done my extensive research within an hour and now I need to break it down into simpler words instead of boring long sentences.
Then I will start on the Storyboarding for my webpage.
Hmmm... What does it mean by Subsequent lower level?

I think I will help out Wei Siong with the Homepage thing. Need to look at examples.
Goodness! I need some inspiration!
Huda! Please come to my rescue!!

Question number 2 is tough! I tried searching for statistic and facts but -___-"
I cannot seem to find on generally for home makers! Maybe I should use a generalise statistic and give out reasons why this website aims mainly for home makers. I got a few reasons but I do not think mine will suffice. I need facts! I need data and evidence to back up this reasons of mine!

Chill syuharah. Unsure?
Ask the WP teacher in charge.
If not, there is Aisyah to give you advise.
There is also your neighbour who is taking IT diploma too.
Chill.

Oh man~ It is not working efficiently!

randooom

2008-06-25T10:03:00.003+08:00

Gotten back 3 out of 4 of my papers

Thus far, I am pretty happy that I scored pretty damn well! By my standard.
Will only list out my sore and grade once I get my Computing Mathematics.
The paper that I dread the most. It is like a blacklist for me.
I pray and pray that I will get a pass. Even a 50 will make me all smiles. Apparently, I did not really have sufficient time to really study it what with COS and FSP taking up almost 70% of my time. I have divided the WP project and I am starting on it tonight :)

Starting on the colours and after which my part on information and how I want to do the storyboarding. If I cannot seem to like draw what I want, there is always daddy, mommy and sissy to help me out - their arts are fantastic for non-artist!
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Okay got this from Haslina's blog. I am bored at the moment therefore I am doing it.

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Man. Lover sounds like I am unpure and had sex with him already.
Anyway …. Tell my daddy!!

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
To always be confident and not be affected by others.

#3. What will your dream wedding be like?
In Dubai. On the floating archery place! My wild imagination!

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
Not always. I just take it as it goes.

#5. What’s your ideal lover like?
If we are able to go through the life obstacles together, then that is enough for me. Being said that, I will willingly accept all his flaws.

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being love? But that only applies if I love him too. If it is one sided for him, I will get afraid.

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
There are a lot of fishes in the ocean! I could not be bothered to wait for one.

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
I will never fall for someone that is already attached! I will keep my distance from that person!

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Sorta. But archery makes them all disappear

#11. Is being tagged fun?
I don’t think I was being tag. I did all these if I have nothing to do.

#12. Is it better to be a serious or happy-go-lucky person?
It totally depends on the situation.

#13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
Can make it thing? If yes then it is archery.

#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
She is hmmm… short(hahahaha!). Okay. She is super funny and a really good friend of mine. She is also the person I want to meet soon besides Steffi, Huda, Leong, Sam and Baba!

#15. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
single & rich. I don’t need a man to live.

#16. What is the first thing you do every morning?
Check the time. If it is too early, back to the bed.

#17. Once you fall for someone, how deep will your love be?
Never been there. So I cannot answer this.

#18. What would you do if your friend has an affair with your boyfriend?
Break up with that bastard and slap the bitch. Both are at fault. It takes 2 hands to clap.

#19. What type of friends do you like?
My current group of friends is enough to last me a lifetime. Also my archery seniors =)
Type? I am not into clique. I jump around to mix with everyone if I feel like it.

#20. What would you do if someone wants to kick your butt?
Pay for my hospital bills and insurance. I don’t mind the pain but give me money as compensation.

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My blog post has been filling up with archery and more archery.

Sorry la. But it is my current interest. Even traveling and shopping are not the top of my list anymore. And most likely, I can resume PT next week or next next week. Forget about the medication. At worst, I will just faint. But after that, I can resume with whatever that is suppose to be done :)

And and. Man. What is wrong with how I wear to school?!
My sissy has been like commenting on them. Not that I really heed it anyway.
To being with, I am a natural sloppy person. I could not care less about fashion and design but that does not mean that my taste bud is bad. I just don't find the need to buy clothes and jeans every time I step out of my house because, if I were to go into the workforce, I might end up wearing formal clothes.

I am going to do a spring cleaning tonight. I just retain my

4 pairs of jeans
7 t-shirts, 4 beatty pe shirt - need to buy :)
14 sleeping boxers
10 home/sleeping shirts
3 shades, throw away all earrings, necklace, skirts and dress
3 backpack, 2 sling bag, 4 handbag
3 wallets for different occasion
2 water bottles
all my bikinis
3 traveling bag
lots and lots of bras, undies, shoelaces

Yuppo! Then my cupboard will be cleaner :) Can fit in my archery stuffs :)

2008-06-23T22:26:00.003+08:00

I think some people are expecting some retaliation post about today.

Nah. Not going to do that.
I have been living for 17 years and this comment is nothing as to what I heard people hurling at me before.
In fact, what he said - I have heard it countless of time! They mentioned that my blog is too vulgar and that I need to put some warning signs.

Yup. Anyway, at the end of the way, it is I who will dictate my own life.
So I will be responsible for what I do. Life is always like that.
Furthermore, if I do not scold or shout vulgarities, my old friends will think that something is wrong with me. To them, no vulgarities from me equates to me being either sad or troubled.

I say vulgarities when I am feeling happy, angry and frustrated.
Vulgarities to me is like what oxygen is to human.

And also, to people saying that my english is good - I need to digress on this Fiction!
My english is crapass! I don' t think it is even secondary four standard! For your information, I failed countless of english composition in my previous school! Mainly because I have problem with grammars. No matter how many times I do revision on grammar and the countless of times I read the Straits Time last time, it still remain unchanged. Vocabulary wise - I just use whatever that comes into my mind without knowing the specific meaning of it.

Anyway. I got my platypus hydration pack!
And it only cost me SGD15.35!!!!!
Thank god I never buy the Nike Bottle!
If that Big Bitch were to see my platypus, I swear she is going to beg my daddy to let her buy one too! Fart ass! I ain't going to let her have anything that is similar to me! Nincompoop!

I thought it was going to cost me like SGD20! Since it was that cheap, I went to Raffles City Mall and treat myself to the Mars Ball :) I wanted Mochi Ice-Cream but the shop closed down :( !!! I did not have craving at that time. Only had stomach ache due to not eating breakfast and lunch plus I took my medicine on empty stomach. Initially, I wanted to go home and eat what my mom cooks - free meals are still the best! But after like walking just to find the shop selling platypus - the only store in Singapore, I was too hungry to even think. Feeling so dizzy and my butt feels painful due to the long walking - got lost in City Hall! Including the fact that I took all the pills on an empty stomach.

Tomorrow, there is IAC. I just plainly detest IS modules! Bores me to death!!
Archery tomorrow though :) Looking forward to it.
I need help on the one arm on the floor thing!
I can barely last 15 seconds!
As for the both arms on the floor, I could last for 60 seconds as wanted but around 45 seconds into it, my stomach was quivering in pain!!

Hahahahahahaha! My parents think I am super violent when I practice my form with the stretchband! The petrified look on their faces was priceless!!

I should ask them to do with me :)

buy buy buy

2008-06-23T13:50:00.003+08:00

HOHOHOHO!

Received some papers. :)
Goodness. I could not believed I passed!
I am more than happy. My main aim for this semester is to get a pass only.
Only I am now waiting for the fuckup C.Mathematics.

I bet and I have this biggest feeling that I might just flunk that paper!
Going to Capitol Building later.
Going to buy my Platypus hydrating pack there.

Been eyeing that bottle since last year but I have no use for it then because of my handy Nike bottle :) Now that I need to bring one litre of water for every training, I have reason to buy it :)
Maybe I will get myself an Adidas sports towel too....

I kept on buying and buying.
Feeling rather regretful about yesterday's ordeal. I should not have done that.
I have now alot of shoelaces, shoe bags.
Yoga mat for nothing - I don't do Yoga anymore. Even if I do, it is Bikram Yoga and nothing else. Reebok shorts - I don't really use it! The earrings! - My ear holes are close! Belly stud - I want to get it from the site because it is nicer and cheaper :( The unknown album. Nike socks -____-". Lastly, the shampoo and conditioner - I have a BIG bottle of L'oreal shampoo and conditioner now that is far from the word finish!

Thank god I never purchase the Nike Water Bottle!

Then now, I can get my dream Platypus :)

Daddy has just been promoted ^o^
No wonder he has been extra generous and relax. He is one weird chap. At the moment where everyone is having a hard time looking for jobs and with the economy downfall, he is promoted. Last year when it was all rosy and nice, he wasn't.

I guess this is his fate.

mad shopping

2008-06-22T18:48:00.003+08:00

How do I go about explaining today's event?

It was a disaster to begin with.
My mom threw away my stretchband because she thought those are one of my trash lying around the house. And without any asking or questioning, she threw that PINK stretchband of mine down the rubbish chute! I was planning to bring it to work because morning shift has almost NO customer because it is SUNDAY!.

Man. I was super angry. Big Bitch has one but I am not talking to that stupid fart.
My older sister on the other hand, did not use it for exercising but instead - she CUT it up into SMALL PIECES and make it into fanciful art for her children at the childcare!! And to add salt to the wound, I bought those with my WORKING MONEY!! It took me 4 hours to buy those! - last time I bought it at SGD20 during promotion :)

I think I have too much sins in my previous life.

So off I went to work. When I have sent off the coach, went into the office and do some resistance training. I tried to do my split, fucking pain! But I am 1/4 more to the ground :)

End work 1 hour earlier. I asked for early release.

First, went to Thomson Plaza to buy the band because the previous time I checked at J8, there were none. Took 145 then 162M. TPlaza don't have. Then took 855 to Yishun. Yishun also don't have. Tried Spotlight, also none. Then went off to Causeway Point by train. There was one!

Bought it using daddy's debit card after which took the MRT to Bishan. Rode on the wrong side of the MRT and only realised it when I reached Chua Chu Kang -___-"

So drop off and took the MRT to Bishan. Slept on the way as I only had 6 hours of sleep!
By this time, I was in a terrible mood. I was sleepy, tired and totally dehydrated. The water in my bottle has dried up and my leg was feeling wobbly. My arms are having strange pain because of the bruises. I haven't eaten lunch and I was having a big headache. It was way past my medicine-taking time and I was still stuck at no where.

Once I reached J8, went to Minitoons. Bought a pair of shoelace because I think it is cute. Went to popular and bought the paper holder thing for the arrows, super glue and colour paper for my own fascination. Then went back down into Converse shop and saw more shoelace so I bought another plain of shoelace. Went to Citrus Sox and saw some more shoelace and this time, there is PINK! So I bought again.

Then I went into Royal Sporting House.
FUCK SHIT KANNINABUCHAOCIBAI!
THE STRETCHBAND WAS THERE!
LINNAOBU!

shit the cibai la! I was freaking furious with myself! I am traveling from one end of Singapore to the other end to search for it and before I knew it, J8 branch restock it!

I was so mad!!!
That I bought

Reebok shorts,
pink Nike yoga mat - for nothing I just happen to like the pink
2 new belly studs
5 pairs of earrings from Bits and Pieces - although I do not wear earrings at all now
1 new black adidas sports bra which is too plain that I felt like splashing red and gold paints onto it
2 pairs of purple nike socks
one set of smiling pasta DVD for my cousin - I suddenly remember it in the midst of my angry-shopping-mood!
Nicholas Teo album
another album which I don't know who is who - just bought it because the cover is really nice
bought the Londale (can't remember) basically the l'oreal shampoo and conditioner (cost me a bomb!)
nike and adidas shoe bag which I will never use at the moment because my California fitness shoe bag is still perfectly fine.

Wanted to go back to Nike shop to buy their one litre water bottle because it only cost SGD20! Plus, it is nice. But then, daddy called asking me to come home straight. Took the bus home. Daddy got a shocked at what I bought. He was about to nag and scold me but before that, I went on to say that I never took a single cab today! His mood lighten a bit and decided to let me go.

I don't really do this often really!. It is like once in a blue moon! The last time I did this was years back before I even own a blog. I had a sudden surge of anger in the middle of window shopping due to a phone call and that time was much worse. I just grab everything within my reach and just kept on slashing the card. I even scolded the cashier for packing my stuffs too long!

I am such an embarrassment!!

Today, I spent about .... wait ar I go count ...
approximately SGD380.

Man. I am much tamer than last time. Good then. The stretch band is such a rip off. I should have just bought it during a sale or something.

And I have so many shoelaces that I am wondering what am I going to do with them.

tough day

2008-06-22T00:10:00.002+08:00

I am absurdly tired!
Came back from work at 11:20pm - stupid kannina bus!
Had a long shower from 11:30pm.
And here I am blogging.

God.
Archery this morning. It was alright. I shoot ALOT - by my standard - today.
I think my arms wants to cry out for help if they could.

And a very
BIG THANK YOU TO
.STACY. YISHAN. AISYAH. DIANA. GRACE. HUIFANG.

You guys have been an absolute darling to juniors like us :)

I doubt I can find this bunch of seniors in other CCA!
Well, almost impossible. And also thank you for pushing me and not giving me face even though I have just been discharge from the hospital! I think with this, it will help me recover much faster then before!! No worries for now. I will train hard and also not to be a quitter that soon. In fact, I am trying my very best to make this CCA my first one that I am ever committed to! And and! Thank you for giving me constructive comments about my shooting form and also giving me encouragement.

I will try and not be a disappointment.

oh. but do not force me into running and jumping yet. i really cannot do it at this very moment.

Work was alright too.
Tomorrow will be suckier as I am working alone on the morning shift!
ALONE! It is the first one that I have been given such an important job!
I got the office keys. Got the coach number for tomorrow. Well, haven't prepare the tickets yet.
Need to reach there by 7:45am! :(

The pressure of waking up early.
Dad sending me to work though. And, I have to go to army market to buy another 3 army brown t-shirt. One track pants. I am planning on buying shorts but nah...

For now, I will use long track pants. Maybe for competition if I am ever in it, I might wear shorts if that is the requirement.

For now, I need my darling sleep.
Eye-bags are forming my eyes are half-awake now.
Even if there is a prince charming who wants to kiss me so that I will wake up,
I will put spikes on my lips so that he won't.

Toodles :)

home at last

2008-06-20T20:15:00.003+08:00

So now I am back from the hospital =)
When I was awake, I re-watched the korean archers especially Park Sung Hyun form.
Her arms are power babe! I kept on re-watching them and even tried to imitate her action on the bed with me on my front sleeping position ^o^

Came back at around 6:00pm. Went to have a shot nap.
Woke up and saw Auntie Cat in my house.
My sister called and asked if I wanted anything. Told her to buy for me Nivea sunblock and contact lens. Then Auntie Cat wants a drink and I told my sister that la.

Suddenly.
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"PIAK!"

I got a slap on my BUTT! The part that I just had my surgery with fresh stitches!
Fuck sia! Pain killer or not, I can feel the pain la!!

I was angry with her that I gave her the angry look.
She slap my butt because I called her Auntie Cat but I don't know her name ma!
By the way, she is my neighbour and I don't really like her.

Okay. I never told everyone about this surgery thing but only to people that needs to know for a reason and in my blog. Unfortunately, she did not know but she was WELL-INFORMED that I had this butt problem since early this year and yet she slap it!

Oh my. I haven't check if it's bleeding or not. I doubt there is a tear though.
Great man.

Of all the place to slap is my butt.
I have breast! Why don't you just slap that instead!

Okay as of this moment, I am able to walk normally at a normal pace. I am able to sit.
I am able to stretch to the ground even though there is a slight pain. Very little therefore no big deal. Push up - no problem.

I cannot jump yet. I cannot jog or run as both requires me to have a slight hop movement and that will put pressure on my left butt. I cannot do my almost complete and perfect split - I never dare to try! I cannot sleep on my back or do anything with my back fully on the ground.
I cannot do SIT UP! :(
and and and ... quite a number of my belly dancing movement!!!! :(

This really stinks. Ah damn!. Really REALly REALLY stinks!!!!

Did I mention that the doctor disallow me to do any rough physical activities for at least a month? Yarhhh..... I don't really give a hoot at all actually.
If I feel like doing it, then I will.
Just that I hope nobody informs my mom about it.

I am going into my room right now and emo on my bed.
I should have taken care of myself right from the start.

Regret. This is pure shitty.

be strong!

2008-06-19T10:55:00.003+08:00

Okay.
Had a squabble and a little argument with my mom.
She was threatening that she will use all means to make me quit archery if I don't rest at all when instructed by the doctor! ARGH!!
Quit archery?! Are you kidding?!
Quit school atleast alright. Maybe I can go to other school division but archery?!

Kiss my fat butt first la okay.

So yeah. Schedule for surgery is 5:00pm today.
I hope they put me to sleep instead of cutting me up when I am still wide awake.
It's damn painful! But I manage to not shed any tears or shout and scream in agony.
I just try to use psychology on myself by thinking
"If piercing body part is nothing, this should be nothing too"
Apparently it works in a way or another. But yeah still hurts.
Kena stitching also when I am not sleeping. Just tahan and think I am re-piercing my belly button 18 times. Only that my belly button shift to the back -___-"

I can still go through training and stuffs after I pop several painkiller! No worries at all!
No pain at all!
Only maybe ... running and jumping is not ermm ... suitable.
And also stretching :(
Since the new stitch is still very new, I have to be extra caution when doing something in case it just tear and all!!

Fuck it man! I am bloody going to stretch nia! I am not giving up my flexibility after all the sufferings I had to go through when in Primary One!
You stupid surgery!

I have the strong urge right now to just tear off and use super elephant glue to stick it up!!

Thank god archery uses the top body muscle most of the time.
Lucky lucky lucky.

I want to try and sleep on my back.
Let's clock on now many hours I can withstand :)

And those tagging at my tagboard.
Can you please reveal yourself if you want to say something?
Most of it are encouragement and advice and .... make it short positive comments.
And since you are an unknown identity, I won't really give a shit about those comments. Maybe how I reply may sound nice because you trouble yourself to tag but yeah, I won't follow any of it. Listening to a strangers comment?

I think I am mad if I really do.

On the other hand....
If you are here to say something negative like:
"You fucking pussy!"
"Don't act strong la knn!!"

Please use anonymous. And at most, since I do not know you, I will just curse you under my breath such as:
"Laocibai! Hope he/she grows dandruff on the bottom amazon!"
Yeap. That's all. But if I do know you, at most if girl I will slap you and if guy, I will kick you if I have the strength and after the stitching heal fully.

With that I end my post today.
Going to meet Stacy later :)
Maybe Yishan too and EKang.
Bye~
I need to try and clock how long I can sleep on my back since it will be the last in many days to come.

GREAT CAMP!!!

2008-06-18T19:47:00.002+08:00

Okay. Back from camping!
I sure did surprise myself by enjoying the camp :)
In a way or another, it is my first camp held in Singapore!
I'm super slow! It's like, I bet people my age have atleast gone to more then 3 or 4 camps and for me, it is only my 2nd camp - the 1st one being in Malaysia.

The camping is not like what I expected. It is definitely super slack - which I guess is good?
Okay. The good thing is we do not feel super duper tired like kanasai the tired.
But it is bad in a way, when we have breaks, it's too long and we have nothing to do since it was an unexpected long break and people like me did not bring anything to entertain myself as I thought it will be full of activities - like most camps but the difference is no rest at all!

First day, arrive late - as usual. Called the cab to cab down. Man, I need to change about this.
Saw Queency because of her pink hair band. Was in Yishan, Aisyah and Zilie group. I was the only girl. I have known that beforehand that I will be the only girl because in my mind the juniors will only be 4 per group but it end up with 8 per group. Imagine 7 guys and 1 girl! Ouhhh..... I don't want to imagine it anymore.

So anyway.... we paid SGD15 for the camp t-shirt. Went to 2nd floor to put our sleeping bag. The walls are a disaster! Like man ..... even my g.ma will hit me if she sees this kind of room! But it's only for the bags [my favourite traveling bag is torn :( ] Went to the field and do some shots to then had dinner which is ... damn - food comments later. Had to watch movies while waiting for the night walk.

Then my group was called up at ... 11 plus? I cannot remember.
My group was JiaHe, Boon Jin[?] and the violent guy - EZhang I think.
First stop is Jason. Okay la. I am very afraid to walk since I don't have my contact lens and my vision at night is SUPER BLUR that I thought I had night blindness but I was wrong! Okay. Then go to Blk 50. The room. Wah sey! We almost wanted to skip the room as the room was scary. Got piano some more le - if they had held in a music room, I will definitely not go in at all! Then the BJ and EZ like plan to open the door and shout to scare them first - damn funny cos in the end we never go in!! I was shivering in frights. Then we decided to just went in. Someone temporarily switched on the light - hehehe. After which I wasn't that afraid anymore to cross the room - wasn't that afraid does not mean I was brave already. Then .... go down. I thought we have to like go down into another room. Wanted to open it then suddenly saw a hollow mask. I just went like - fuck shit! in my head and screamed my lungs off while trying to run down.
Nice one~
Then 3rd station. The dummy failed on Aisyah and we were not scared by it although I did feel paranoid about something dropping on top of my head.
4th stop. The toilet. Damn la. Suddenly people come out of cubicles. I screamed like nobody's business because that is the most I will do if I feel scared. Crying - I don't really like showing tears in public. Well anyway... yeah. Basically it was fun la.

I had alot of fun screaming my lungs off!! Since I haven't done that since - last year sports day! After that I was asked to become the long-hair-cover-face-women.
Scared several people and I don't want to go into details.
After everything, went back shower and slept in LT51A.

Second day.
PT in the morning. I did not do.
Then breakfast. Then we had the dog and bone!
I never manage to bring glory to the team but yeah .... I had alot of fun nonetheless for getting the chance to kick and everything - HELLO MUAY THAI! WELCOME ME SOON!
Then played the maze.

One of my stitches broke! I just got that stitched this year around ... may? When I first time cannot do PT training. Because 2 years ago, it wasn't stitched up. They just let it close by itself and walla! There is like puss growing in it now after those years. Puss coming out since last year. I thought it is just temporary but then it started to get worst with 3 times per month. Cool.

Yeah. Just great. But I did feel happy and pain though =)
After that captain's ball. I did not play so as to not aggravate the matter. And furthermore, it requires running - but it's netball =(.

Okay. Then break 2hours. Ate all my medicine in the toilet including painkiller. It did subside the pain but not fully but it's bearable - for me la. Water bomb with fascinating concoction. And I will remember to take my revenge on Danny for the water bomb. I am freaking good at remembering this. One guy got soap on his hair =) Ahhhh ..... I was happy about that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Eat another 2 pain killers because I was going to sleep soon. Change clothes. Then went to sleep. Was awoken when pizza came. Then toilet to piss after that drink water and sleep.

Third day.. My arrow length increased!!! I am going to keep on stretching my arms sia!!!!

Talk talk talk. Give comment and release. Went home and rest.

Okay about the food.
Being freaking frank and not really give a shit about alot of stuffs I just speak my mind off.
The food is disgusting - presentation wise. With that, it sort of put my appetite off. Taste wise - it was okay la BUT with chicken not really cooked - I have problems with this - I get turned off instantly. I don't eat noodles except for those instant noodles and laksa - only my mom's one. The chicken black pepper is the - URGHH!!! I felt as though I was filling myself with cancer filling substance! I like burnt food to a limit - but this one. I cannot tahan one!
I am thankful for the one that ordered the food.
I just hmmm... not satisfied with the person who sold and cooked it.

We should have a dog and bone match with these people man. Especially Ms June since she makes the archers suffer!

Okay. Basically I am very happy :)
I did not really get to bond but I did managed to know more people.
I am also happy that I got injured. I have been protecting myself from getting any injuries since the surgery, therefore doing those sports that requires no running and roughness making me all unharmed, unmark, unscratched and unhappy.

I got alot this time! Pain here and there. Little bleeding and all.
I can withstand pain. Most of it unless it is bloody unbearable!
I slept on my front most of the time or on the side because of this shit!
Getting my surgery tomorrow since it has already torn. Going to stay overnight there.

What else....
I will try to do slow jog and run around my area on Friday night.
I don't want to give a fuck about this surgery thing. I have to get myself back on track if I want to get into the competition!

Stupid medicine some more! Headache la. Dehydrated la. Short breath la.
Then after this surgery will confirm MORE consumption! Adding antibiotics and maybe stronger painkiller. And somemore la. Crazy! I am a real crazy pill popper sia!

And I need to change the plastic bag of those holding my current pills. My third time changing it.

Basically. Thank you to the seniors for the camp! It definitely worth my time spent!
I should have brought money to treat those that make these camp great.
Maybe when school reopens :) Daddy will definitely give me money without me asking.

As of current moment, I need to beg to get some.

I wonder if my batch can do something like this.
For now. I am addicted to shooting. I don't know la.
I am weird. I hate doing stuff in repetition but I like archery.
I don't know la. I want to watch my drama!!!!

Damn. BYE!~

P/S. Sorry for the long post.

later update

2008-06-16T10:19:00.002+08:00

Will update everything when I come back.
Including the Indonesia trip - did I mention that it was my second trip there after 17 years living?

Then... ahhh.
Sorry. No pictures uh.
I did not bring my camera as I thought that trip will be full me-watching-drama-on-laptop.
Which is of course partially true :)

Okay packing time. I am only left with 2 hours.
Cabbing to school again :)

back home

2008-06-15T13:36:00.001+08:00

Rules : Each blogger start with ten random facts or habit about themselves . Blogger that had been tagged to do have to post out 10 random facts/habits about themselves .At the end of it , blogger have to tag ten people to do the quiz .

1.I like to watch dramas. Be it Korean, Japanese, Taiwanese, Indonesia or English.
2.I get random school allowance :) Most is $$$. Least is $.
3.I cannot have lights on when I am sleeping.
4.I hate cockroach!!
5.I love to belly dance :)
6.I don't drink coffee, tea, Yeo's and other weird stuff.
7.I love Haribo sweets the most ^o^
8.I get frustrated when I cannot memorise the lyrics for Chinese/Japanese/Korean songs.
9.I can't eat mint and chili! They kinda burn my throat. Some food got exception.
10.I can eat at ANY stalls as long as the food that I am ordering has no pork in it.

Van, Tree, Sam, Haslina and whoever.

Yup! I am back!
At 11:00am plus today, landed Singapore - alone :)
Trip was ... Okay but I won't be seeing them anymore or anytime soon.
They are migrating to California in mid August! Rich farts.

I am suppose to go Vivocity but ... lazy uh.
I think I just buy food from my house here.

Currently, I am addicted to Nicholas Teo songs especially
Dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui ^o^

Okay I need to buy Smiling Pasta DVD. I promise my cousin - Nicky, to get it as her belated birthday!! - the one who got married. Younger brother named Nick and 5 years older than me.

I believe that if they had a younger brother, he may be named Dicky!

Okay. Pardon my rudeness.
Watching Absolute Boyfriend and Smiling pasta now.

Damn I am watching alot of dramas nowadays!

Rewatching:
Smiling Pasta for the 8th time.
Full House for the 7th time.
Hana Yori Dango for the 6th time.

Watching and waiting:
Absolute Boyfriend (Zettai Kareshi)
Fated to Love you

HANA YORI DANGO FINAL COMING UP!!!
And there is likely a sequel for Smiling Pasta. Details and confirmation not release yet.

Okay camping tomorrow.
I am sleepy.
Night~

off I go

2008-06-12T15:46:00.003+08:00

okay. I shall make this quick and short.
Coming back on Saturday Night instead.
My 5th time doing changes. Thank god for Garuda Indonesia.
They let you change the timing without any extra!

I am not too sure where I am staying.
Neither do I know of any relatives there
Hope Andika (?) - I think that is his name - will come too :)
Never met him for a LONG time.

Sunday evening. I am going to Vivocity to go and do some Marks & Spencer food shopping followed by CANDY EMPIRE!!. Miss that shop so much!
Bringing it all to camp I guess - Remember Sec 3 camp? I brought a BIG bag and inside is FULL of FOOD!

I haven't notify anybody about the blog reopening. Hell.
This is better actually.
Okay I want to buy some stuff at the terminal now.
BYE~

reopening

2008-06-11T20:28:00.004+08:00

I did mention that I want to reply the tag on this post.

But when I think about it again, it is way overtime.
Therefore, sorry. No reply. Apparently, most of it has been solved in reality.

Reopening this blog. Apparently, I am using another portal for venting my frustration.
Google it up. Search for it anywhere, it is not likely that you can find one.
I never wrote down on anybody's name and I have disabled google for that site.

Anyway, the overdue pictures:

PRIMARY SCHOOL OUTING!

Rio in blue checkered looking like a robber. HongLoong with that BIG idiotic smile. Steffi in purple. And Micheal in white. Sukarto missing in action. Apparently, he escaped and went to the gents. Rio and Micheal took the camera and went into the gents in the hope to get a decent picture of Sukarto. But failed miserably. Idiot HongLoong have the tendency to make fun of me! I am the shortest obviously therefore, I am asked to stand at the front! I tried to drag Steffi too but she wants to stand at the side...

YAH! Sukarto in BLACK!
I took the picture and apparently it was a rush one. Reason being, I don't want to give Sukarto the chance to run away or take anything to cover his face!
Pray and pray he comes to Ngee Ann!
He is a really good friend. Violent friend =)

Stoning. Doing nothing. Steffi took this picture.
While doing nothing, we were guessing each other's birthday. I remembered Steffi one damn well as it is the same number of the month but different month.
Meaning mine is 06.02 while hers is 06.09 =)
Sukarto is 16.04 (?...I still forget sia)
Rio the robber is in February but he don't want to mention the day!
Micheal is.... May(?)
HongLoong is October something something la. Not significant ^.^
Phakathorn is in October. I am guessing it is on the 18. If I am not wrong.

At the cafe in front of California Fitness. Sukarto treated me because he got not more change! Hahahahahaha! Treated Phaka too because he is leaving Singapore. Others need to pay because he got change. Okay la. I gave him money the last. Not because I was hoping for a treat but I always have the habit to give people last because it's troublesome if everybody kept shoving money and everybody needs a change.

Unless of course, if I have exact amount or slightly more, I will give it first. Don't like the feeling of having debts.
The same place. I wonder who is the photographer....
BAD PICTURE!

At Monster cue. The place that I met Jolene =)
We were about to go home.
HongLoong - the retard. What is with the face nia!
Thank goodness he never read my blog =)

Today.
It seems as though I did the right choice in choosing archery as my CCA.
And I need to keep my head grounded no matter what!

SYUHARAH! DOWN SYUHARAH!

I cannot run. I think I need to start myself off first by carrying weights.
Since cannot run. Then do something about my strength first ar.
So that I can pull the SUPER heavy 26 pound!
Okay. It is not super heavy. I am just plain weak :(

Next next week, I need to go to the doctor again.
Sian! If the stupid thing come again, I might need another surgery and WALLA!
ALL NEW MEDICINE!
How fascinating! Hopefully all in pills. Atleast, easier for me to just pop it in.
Its only a day or 2 surgery. Nothing serious. Non-vigorous sports - I should be able to resume it 2 days later. I presume that is the minimum days of rest I will be given.

When I wanted to cross the overhead bridge today to get home,
WAHPIANG!
I felt as though the cut from the surgery opened again!
And I was like holding to the top of my butt to perhaps aid me to get home.
I rushed to the toilet once I got home.
It was just bleeding but nah ... no opening.
Phew*
Cleaned it and went to sleep.

DRAMA NOW!
Bye~

my treasure are my friends

2008-06-10T00:18:00.003+08:00

With doors close and open windows,
I hope I can relax and breath in and out fresh air without pressuring myself.
It has been a terrible month.
Actually specifically said, it has been a horrible year.

The school. The course. The environment. The change.

It is not something that I want to endeavor.

I am tired. Real tired with surprising events popping up out of nowhere.
I miss my old friends so much that I will sometimes cry myself to sleep.
I miss (primary to secondary)

Steffi, Vivid, Ren, Phakathorn, Sabariah, Hong Loong, Sukarto, Jolly, Ze Kai, Roy, Chinto, Shafiqah, WanJing, Parthibun, Wei Zhou, Syamira, Nabihah and perhaps Limantra.

Haslina, Huda, QiLing, Agatha, Widya, Elizabeth, ShengYang, ShiXiong, GuanKai, Andy, Vanessa, Tang, Theresa, Jovin, WeiZhou, Yichou, Parthibun, Peera, Yohanes, Samantha Koh, MaLong, Janice, Kangning, KiatSiang, Kenneth and WeiLing.

Yeah. The number of friends that I have can be counted with your bare fingers. Although some of the above that are listed are not my really close friends, but they are the people that makes my daily life very interesting.

Some are real busy with life. Some have gone overseas to study. Some adapted to their new life so easily. While others like me are stuck within the old time dimension.

Will life be mundane if there is no change? What if I could combine both my primary and secondary school friends together?

Both sides are real noisy people.
But I especially treasure my primary school friends. Eventhough it has been like almost to FIVE years since we had a gathering, but nonetheless, almost everyone took the effort to free up a day for a final "complete" old gathering before another one of our friend flew away.

Friends.
It shall remain forever.
These are the friends that I will treasure for life.
It is hard for me to make new friends because the old ones are a terrific bunch of people!
I have said in my previous entries to not trust or depend on your friends and family.
But I hope, for once again, I am opening that option again to my old friends.

I just closed it up after one incident.
I should let others get the chance.

Cheers to them!~

fucker

2008-06-05T23:59:00.002+08:00

Hmm...
Today's paper is a BIG fucker!
YES! MUCH MORE BIGGER THAN COMPUTING MATHEMATICS!

dick la! make the paper until so hard!
you think my brain is java is it?!
you give me test to write down vulgarities or what okay la!
Please lor! If you talk to me like

string name;
int age;
string schoolName;
char gender;

I will give you this as an answer:
_|_

Idiot! Haiz. I am still pondering why in the fuck world did I get myself into information technology! Infact, why am I fascinated by it in the beginning?!
Ngee Ann Polytechnic is my fifth choice!
The first four choice are also technology related!
If I am not wrong it's:

Business Info Tech - Singapore Polytechnic
Business Info Tech - Ngee Ann Polytechnic
Business Administration in International Business and trade - Singapore Polytechnic
Financial Informatics - Singapore Polytechnic

Yes. I love Singapore Polytechnic alot! Well, let's put it as a thing of the past, I USED to love Singapore Polytechnic. Infact, I even once wanted to transfer myself in SP IT but decided to stick my bum in NP as they offer e-business in year two which is non-existence in SP >.<
But still! I am still fascinated by the fact that I used to be awed and curious about technology. Now, go to any electrical shop, and I went la -__-"

And and. Yesterday I fainted ... I mean REALLY fainted!
At home thankfully!

I was on the floor with my FSP book no where and the clothes basket fall on top of me.
I THOUGHT I WAS ON THE BED LA!

But I was on the floor near the door of my room.
Thankfully nobody saw me...

After that, I pick myself up once again and went to the bed to sleep - at 8:30pm!!
Woke up at 8:30am!!
I must be too sick and tired by then.

I have been cabbing 4 times this week! Everytime I want to go to school!
CALL SOMEMORE!
My dad will be fuming at me if he ever know what I did with my allowance!
Taking cab again MAYBE tomorrow if I am tired to take the bus from East Coast to my house.
And Saturday, MUST take taxi. I only got maybe 1/2 and hour to get to my class.

I want to sleep sia!
Bye la.

the history

2008-06-04T17:10:00.002+08:00

I realised that I was log out of blogger. I am feeling rather suspicious about it.
The fact is, since this is my own personal laptop, I have never log out of blogger since the day I log in. Somehow today, it mysteriously wasn't log in. And plus, I remember that before I step out of the house, my computer was shut down but when I came back, it was on.

If I ever find out that my younger sister is the one that use my laptop without my permission, I am fucking going to slap her hard and kick her in the stomach!! She is an asshole! I just asked her to buy for me prawn cracker which cost only SGD2 and she was like "See first la!"

Fucking shit lazy cibai fart!

Mustafa has everything in it and just to search through the crackers section, she felt fucking lazy about it! I am going to change my password freaking soon! That bitch realised that I use the same password for everything even hotmail and my forums! Damn it, you watch out you fart wheeze!
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Okay to clear some misunderstanding from my old friends - really old! Since I was 9 years old! But they are like 2 years older. Basically I am their junior but I don't act like one.
Okay, they chance upon my blog and read that I am a mix descendant of Indonesia, Chinese and Malay. They think I am faking it up because I never talk Bahasa Indonesia before.

Haiz. Here is the real history okay.

My grandparents on my DAD's side originated from Indonesia. They fled to Singapore during the World War 2, my dad wasn't born yet. He was born - pretty obvious, in SINGAPORE! Then, he took up Singapore citizen together with his other siblings. My grand dad stayed in Malaysia instead - reason unknown with one of my uncle and NO my grandparents did not get a divorce.

So, ANYWAY, my dad, no matter what he is consider a JAVANESE - these bunch of people, their real origin is from INDONESIA!

My Chinese blood on the other hand is VERY LITTLE! But elder sister seem to be getting quite a decent of it being fair skin! - I am the darkest mind you. SO, the Chinese blood is from my MOM's FATHER .... he is some sort of a peranakan which I don't know how to explain. Married my grandmother - who originated from MALAYSIA/BATU PAHAT.

And here I am a mix of here and there. And why I did not talk in Bahasa Indonesia during my earlier primary school time is because, I DON'T KNOW HOW TO!
My dad do use some Indonesia words sometime with Singapore Malay slang. He even talk to me in Bahasa Jawa which I don't know how to speak till now. And therefore, I did not know that it was INDONESIAN LANGUAGE!

I only came to know about this when I was in Primary 4! We were going to Indonesia to visit my relatives! And that is how I came to know that I have relatives in that country! I only start being able to communicate FLUENTLY in that language in Primary six - because my class has a lot of Indonesian and they LOVE to speak in their native language.

After being inactive in speaking that language, I cannot speak as fast as I used to and I tend to forget what the words mean. I can listen to them talk and understand though but I tend to reply in English - afraid of being embarrassed.

So there you go. My real true history.
You farts are welcome to email me any queries. I bet you guys have my email. I never changed the address since the first time I created it.

And by the way, my race in my Identification Card is stated as JAVANESE!

Therefore, I have every right to say that I am half Indonesian! - my dad don't want to admit it himself because he likes Singapore while vice versa for the other country. Me on the other hand - maybe because I have a handsome number of Indonesian friends therefore I like that country.
It would have been great if I really was from there. Sadly, I am only half of it.

So farts,
BITE YOURSELF TO THOSE FACTS!
If you don't believe me, you are welcome to ask my dad directly :)
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So yeap. End of explanation about my history. Geez. After 4-5 years of no communication, I met up with them last night under my Block because I can only be out of the house for 1 hour max! And they only came to know my blog like.... late last year? Yeap.
How did they manage to contact me? When they realise that I am staying in Bishan, all came to a conclusion that I am still staying at the same place.

It is a long story! Some of them really change in the looks department! Hairi looks more handsome! Some looks like they grow too old too fast - having goatee and stuff. Some look like beng with fierce look.They are SO TALL! 1.73 is the shortest! The tallest is 1.85!
Idiot bamboos!

Need to study for FSP! I have yet to touch a single shit!

shit! problem

2008-06-02T09:54:00.002+08:00

I haven't been shitting for 2 days straight.
I got worried today so I went to buy the pump thing that will assist you in shitting.

I think it must be due to the new medicine.
Usually, I will shit everyday without the help of laxatives or the pump.

I think I need to go back to the doctor.
I don't want to keep on pumping my asshole.

Studying now. Rushing to make my notes.
Will update later IF I have competed studying for computing mathematics which is 2 topics away.

1st of june

2008-06-01T10:06:00.002+08:00

I have taking countless of brain quiz before.
And all of them generate the same result.
I am a left-brainer. I am more towards logical and analytical thinking.

The thing is, I don't think logically. I think with my feelings and guts!
And I love creativity - that does not require logical and analytical!
I can fail maths and science anytime! I will never be the likes of einstein or newton.

I think something is wrong with my brain. Or maybe, left-brainer should be the creative ones!

Or maybe. I am just plain weird fullstop.

primary gathering

2008-06-01T00:09:00.002+08:00

Today has got to be the happiest day for me ever!
Yeah, Penguin has never failed to make fun and mock me.
But then, I have never seen them in a long time!!!
I miss them so MUCH!

Goodbye to Phakathorn~
See you in Thailand whenever I go there.

I need to study now.
My brain is functioning better despite the new medication that cause me constant headache.

Man. Now I recall how much I love my Primary 6 life.
It was one of the best ever!
And I really love my friends despite some of them begin an asshole at times.

Maybe just maybe, polytechnic life, the final year, might not be too bad.

I always like something when it is near to its ending.
But nonetheless, I created something out of the limited time I was given.

Memories that I will always keep!
*I am not trying to be mushy but its the fact*

Pictures will be up when steffi send them to me =)

understood!

2008-05-31T02:20:00.004+08:00

ohmygawd!

I did not imagine it but I did it!
I read through the whole slide of FSP and miraculously understood them.

Well, except for Lecture 6.
It was great I tell you! Getting my brain all pump up. Tomorrow, I am going full Turbo on COS and CM and staying up in the wee hours to complete my papers and understanding on WP. WP is easier I must say but still, I cannot compromise anything and left that subject out and not study it.

My sister is paying for my latest medical bill!
I really have sweet tongue I tell you.
Must be because of my SGD6 worth of Haribo!

Yeap. I have been sick since the post o'level holidays. After I came back from Melbourne and Bali, it got worst. It kinda stabilize when I went to Bangkok. But it got somehow a little worst when I came back again.

Things are going well for now. I have been putting on weight because of the medication that I have been prescribe to which I have no idea what they are. I just plainly consume them.

Ahhh... I am having appointment again tomorrow.
And there is a possibilities that I have diabetes.
It runs in the family so I am not shock if I do get one.
I must stop my Haribooo! +.+

Belly Dancing tomorrow. 2nd last lesson~
Going to sign up for the advance soon~

I hope to get back to my secondary school weight soon!

ahhh!! I don't know when to sign up for muay thai!

stressing out

2008-05-30T00:13:00.002+08:00

Studying has apparently made my brain go haywire!
I am like spamming some people's blog and writing nonsensical that just pop up at the corner of my brain. This is scary.
After 6 months of hiatus from really mugging like a mad women, this has taken a toll on my total well being. Goodness gracious me.

FSP is fucking tough. Alright. I did not listen to a single thing that he was teaching. Its like, I can only concentrate on the topic for at most 15 minutes before wonderland starts calling for me. Great. Then there is the computing mathematics. Goodness me.

I can concentrate for the first 2 hours but when he got to my other enemy topic, the computer will be the place where I wonder off. The first topic and the second topic is the shit. I just hate those 2 topics to the maximum that I wish they just never exist.

Who in the blue world created them huh?!

Killing my brain cells every single second trying to put everything inside this puny brain of mine in the hope that it will remain there.

Stress. Such a small word with big impact.

missing foood

2008-05-28T23:46:00.003+08:00

Goodness Gracious Me!
I am craving for onigiri in the middle of the night!
I miss those that were made by *ehen* g.ma! They were so fresh and yuuum!
Eating them during spring while sitting on the balcony's ledge.
She will put eggs inside. Sometime, making them unique and put hotdog or nuggets inside.

Really nice~
I think I need to post *ehem* a message to get the recipe from his g.ma.
I cannot possibly flew all the way to Los Angeles just to get a taste of it.
Eh wait. I think she should be back in Japan by now.

And she used to make for me some bento before I follow *ehem* to a shopping mall.
She kept on mentioning how nasty the American's food are.

So basically, I really want an onigiri now.

Japan~
Maybe it should be my next on the list besides Thailand.
I should be studying now. Look where my concentration have gone...
Great syuharah. Good job! Pat yourself on the shoulder.
If the result of your CA is down, so will all your dreams for to be a competitor in archery!

Bye~

long and forgotten

2008-05-28T17:10:00.002+08:00

Have I mention that I have been to Paris before?

I think I have not. The thing is, I have FORGOTTEN that I have been there!
How great can that be. Now that I remember it, I wish I had never recall it.

To sum it all up, the trip sucks.
I wish there were some people who could just disappear at that very moment.
Or the French will turn them into es cargo or something.

Yeah. That trip. That stupid trip. Thank god it wasn't my money.
The place, the scenery - it was fantastic.
The people that was with me that ruin the whole scenario.

Yup. To conclude everything, no pictures were taken!
How memorable~

too badd.

2008-05-26T14:05:00.003+08:00

Man.
I just don't get it.
It seems that the youngster these days are getting mature too fast that sometimes I mistaken them for my age! Maybe it's just me that haven't grow up yet? Or perhaps I have been living under my father's armpit too much to realise the realistic ness of this world that I have just came to know.

I think I want to crawl back to my daddy's armpit then if this is reality.
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My parents have never allow me to travel to Indonesia citing that it is a dangerous country. Fact is, which country is not? Alright, maybe Singapore is safe and sound but then again, low crime does not mean no crime right? If I were to get robbed in a country, I guess it's my luck than.

So anyway, yeah they have never allow me to go to Indonesia even though that is the origin of our ancestor! Malaysia on the other hand which my maternal grandmother originate from - it was given the green light.

My siblings fuss about what is great about Indonesia especially Jakarta - I have been there once to my parents dismay on my own.
Basically, that is where my friends are! They should know how to keep me safe and sound in that country! That reason alone is enough to keep me wanting to go there.
I really *LOVE* my Indonesian friends.
To name a few: Steffi, Tangtang, Vivid.
I have quite a handful of Indonesian friends thanks to Steffi's introduction.

I tell you this : They are as fun as they sound! Yes - Noisy.
But they are lively and spontaneous.

Enough to keep me happy and alive.

happy day

2008-05-24T22:27:00.003+08:00

Hello!
I am in a good mood today! Because I learn some new moves that my old school never taught me before and in addition, the teacher kinda praised me!
WHOOOO!!

I am trying to learn Melbourne Shuffle too.
It looks erm....complicated but well, fun to learn. And the guy that is showing the basic steps in YouTube is cute ^o^

Man. I am in the middle of HTML project and I think everything is going perfectly horrible! I don't know what to write about myself. I am not sure about myself, myself. How am I suppose to write about myself! Okay, I am making things more complicated.
I am having sore throat again. Great!

I wonder how is the archery competition. I don't think I will be going down to Clarke Quay tomorrow. I want to try and complete the project by tomorrow so that I can start on my revision for CA. I must get a really good marks for all test because I think I screwed up in daily lessons.

Phakathorn going back Thailand to study in the university there!
Final gathering with him for Primary school people!
Steffi!! Come okay!

Most likely on the 13th of June. After my archery camp...
Dad was relief that the camp will cost him nothing! Hahahahaha! He is such a funny old man.
Anyway, my menses is weird nowadays. They like to burst through the limit and stain here and there. They are misbehaving! Damn....

I think SCTV is kinda screwed! >.<
The show is suppose to be at 9 singapore time but it only start at 10!

Sorry. I am being random.Its a habit actually. Mixing with Huda and Sam sure has caused some disturbance in my concentration! Hehehehehee..

Oh. Today I spent SGD25 on cab. SGD10 on food. SGD5 on magazine. SGD40 on hip scarf.
I still have SGD20.
I am not getting any allowance tomorrow. So the SGD20 is for tomorrow. Anyhoo, I am not going anywhere tomorrow. Maybe my dad bringing me shopping in Raffles City. He wants to buy some polo t-shirt I think.

I need to continue on my project.
See my concentration is shorten and I got distracted because there is a tv on my left and the belly dance music infront of me. My sister trying to learn the move from me.

I am going to ask for payment!

hating it

2008-05-23T21:51:00.003+08:00

There is a very thin line between caring and irritating.
Apparently, the latter always happen.
It gets on my nerves. And I get angry easily when this occurs.

You can scold me vulgarities. You can get violent with me.
But being irritating is one of the things that I can never tolerate.

I am in fact very direct.
If I am happy, I will showcase it by laughing heartily.
If I am sad, I will just cry easily.
If I am angry, I wouldn't bother holding myself back from scolding vulgarities.

And if I am irritated, I won't hold back to tell you just that. I also won't mind losing the friendship when it is mix with frustration and distress.

I express myself easily. I don't hold back emotion because that is plain stupid.
A girl who is irritating, somehow I can tolerate it a little. But if a guy is irritating, I just feel like shoving my fist up his abdomen and let him vomit out whatever he has just eaten.

Yes. Just now I was feeling irritated before presentation. I have to practically do almost everything. I am so tired. There is no initiative at all from anybody except from Wei Siong I think - for that I thank him. I am not trying to bad mouth anybody but I am just so frustrated. And please don't keep on asking me the same question over and over again like a spoil radio station!

Projects. It brings out the worst in everybody.
Apologising will not solve everything. It is not the case for me because I love to hold grudges.
And furthermore, it won't make up for the amount of sleep that I have lost trying to complete this fucking project.
Thank you to Jolene though for your help =) - I thought I might die on that very night.
This is the reason why, I have always like doing individual project.
I can do whatever I like. If the teacher were to criticise my work, I have no one to blame to except for myself. If it were group work, chances are, everybody will take the opportunity to avoid trying to be the responsible person.

I am tired. In the future, I might lock up this blog. Only those that have my links will be given access to this blog. Because, in the future, there are chances that this blog will be my venting ground on the serious level whereby I am starting to HATE people.

You know something?
I think this is worst then my Secondary one life.
And I have always hated my entrance year in secondary school.
When I think about it now, this is the worst for me right now.

There are people in my class that are fun and nice to be with but there are people that just get on my nerves. I am still in my year one. So I will try and not cause trouble for myself.
When in year 2, I might reveal it.
I cannot wait for 3 years to past by. I will be in the working life, earning my fucking money and enjoying my fucking life. I hope to make a few good friends though to keep in touch and to introduce them to my old friends.

But for now, that remain to be unseen.

changes

2008-05-23T11:34:00.002+08:00

The volcano erupted yesterday at around 11:00 plus plus after Jolene asked me for the thing.
My mind suddenly went blank because I don't have it too and I got the feeling that I really need it on that day. After Jolene managed to secure one and was out, the lava just flow.

Fuck man!
And it is unlike the past that I had before. It won't like burn my trousers or something but this time it did! Damn the lava!! I swear I am going to throw all those that kena! I am going to buy new Pierre Cardin's undies!

So... I had no choice but to wait for the test to be over and I smsed Sam about it.
My HERO!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Thankyou my dear tall monster!
I love you very the much much!

So my lava was in control yesterday. And today I had to wear two layers of protection.
Damn. I hate volcanoes!

Anyway, GOODLUCK to the archers!
Tomorrow is the competition and I am not going to be there because... I have to send my parents off. They are going back to Indonesia to attend a wedding but they will be back in the evening.

ALOT of money right?! Can fly in the morning and back in the evening!
I only ask them for SGD100 they say no money!
So in the end I only got half of it as my today's allowance.
Shiikotenene...

Daddy is thinking of dropping my allowance to SGD20 per day on a permanent basis. Either SGD20 or SGD30. Man... I prefer the irregular amount!
Maybe I can psycho him or something. Permanent basis is boring. Everyday is predictable!

Thinking of getting 2 surgeries when I grow old. One is lasik surgery for the eyes. and the other is to cut off my sweat gland off my palms.

I have sweaty palms problem.
Its inborn so I cannot do much about it except not to hold anything for more than 30 minutes straight. Sunny days are the worst! Within 5 minutes and that's it!

Sweaty palms is one of the shittiest inborn thing ever!

loser in me

2008-05-22T15:45:00.002+08:00

My sister is being nice to me.
She is going to be a graduate of Ngee Ann Polytechnic.
But the invitation she has is for 2 and I pester her to get extra.
She got it now and she just smsed me at 3:45pm asking me if I want to come.

Being the typical bitchy moody slutty ass-sy syuharah, I ignore it.
Let's see how long I can last.
I am such a loser!
Later~`

hatred released

2008-05-22T00:07:00.001+08:00

Isn't it nice that others get to lay their head on the pillow and drift off to lullaby land while here I am in the morning typing out and doing some shit. Mind you I have yet to study for FSP.
The shit.

I hate school!
Fucking hate you!

loving and hating

2008-05-19T16:19:00.003+08:00

There are still so many country that I wish to go!

There is the crazy shopping Hong Kong,pretty South Korea and exotic Japan.

I have been to quite a number of country but it will never cure my hunger for the need to travel!
Then, there is USA with its truckloads for discount shops and factory outlet!
There is still Thailand - I am missing that country very much!
Indonesia too - one of the few best undiscovered treasure hunt!

Dubai - for its exotic and TAX FREE INVASION!
Paris and Venice for the romantic views.

Australia for its weather! - yup they got great weather especially Melbourne where unexpected weather occurs.

But for now, I just want to travel throughout Asia first. I find it real funny to travel to white's land only to know nothing about Asian.
Yup so, I want to go to Hong Kong, Korea and Japan.

My parents are a bad ass though.
They only like one country - Saudi Arabia. So chances of me bring them to other country is as slim as an anorexic ass.

Moving on...
My sister tried talking to me today.
I had enough of her breaking her promises. Therefore I ignored her.
Truth to be told. I want to talk to her but I have a very stubborn heart.

I am just so tired of people taking me as though I am nothing!
Taking me for granted. Chunking me after using me and deem me as useless!
There are reasons why I am hard to communicate. Why I am not open.

There are countless of time that people make use of me. Be it from using my money without paying back to letting me deal with the whole project.
I am damn lucky to be in 4E4 last year whereby they treat me as equal.

Do I have the look that says:
"BOSS ME AROUND!"

Fuck it. I have no desire to be someone's dog!
Kiss my fucking fat ass if you think I will ever be!

There are some people that I am having issues with now.
My class - they consist of really nice bunch of people who knows how to have fun without going wild*. My family, I am having issues with my older sister (that BIG BITCH!) and my older brother (that fucking BASTARD! - it is because I hate his fiancee!)

Man. I feel as though I am acting in a serial drama.

Okay back to that Big Bitch. She promised me to pay for my belly dancing class. But she took her own sweet time to not pay me. I thought it was because I was fighting with my mom but it was not! She REALLY had NO intention to give me the money!
She said she felt wrong.

WHAT KIND OF SIN IS THAT WHEN THE WHOLE ACADEMY ONLY CONSISTS OF GIRLS!
THERE ARE ABSOLUTELY NO GUYS!

I am fucking pissed off with her until now. I had to dig into my own savings to supplement this class when I had intention to use it for a Muay Thai school conducted by real Muay Thai boxer.
I really felt like slapping her hard right now and kicking her in the stomach!
She is sick now - that is the only reason holding me back.

Yeah. Whoever got me as their sister are fucking lucky!

To summarise the whole thing - I just fucking hate that fucking bitch!

I am sorry but I cannot hold onto my anger anymore. Vulgarities just spew out like my native language. I am crying in anger right now.
Cibai! I really hate her!

to be an archer

2008-05-17T22:14:00.004+08:00

I am starting to watch videos on archery and god!
The Koreans really have great form!
Their drawback hands are fucking cool!

Ahhh... I think I am starting to really like archery.
I know I shouldn't judge it now. I have yet to go through full time archery training just yet but looking at how others are able to shoot... I mean basically they look cool la.
They look as though they are the people that can protect people!

Oh and I like Yun Mi Jin and Park Sung Hyun form. Prefer the first one better though cos i thing the drawback hand is really nice and short. The first one which is number one for women, I like her arm! Really nice. It look strong and safe!

Hahahahahahahaha!
I am sounding so stupid!

But yeahh...
Anyway, I was late for my first class -belly dancing. God.
Because the girls have yet to take the test yet. Man -___-"
Going to go to the archery field at one this tuesday to train on my own.
Need to bring my stretchband. Got to jot that down on my organiser.
Release at 12 though. If I feel sleepy, I am going to take 74 to my house - sleep on the bus.
Then drop near my house bus stop and take 74 back to school - sleep on the bus again.

Tadah! One hour gone!
This is what I do last time during the one hour break! Concession. No lost and I had fun sleeping in an awkward positions!
I need to sleep earlier. I overslept today and did not go for work at 6pm!
Man... I am oversleeping tooo much! I think I must buy an alarm clock now.

Need to top up my concession.

Ahhhh and did I mention that I sweat during belly dancing?!
Damn it sia! I thought won't sweat because it look so easy!
But 30 mins into the lesson I was sweating. Everybody in the class did by the way!

And I am going back to Bikram Yoga in .... four to five months time!
I miss that place! That is how I got to improve more on my flexibility!
Now my forehead can touch my knee without bending my knees!!
Hahahahahahahahahaha!

Man I got SO much money huh to spare.... Damn. It is depleting fucking fast though.

I need to start saving. I might forgo the idea of Bikram Yoga to buy the archery bow.
Bikram Yoga cost almost to SGD500 per/month. so yeapp.

Suddenly, it seems so interesting.

To be an archer.

UPDATE!!
I am feeling super angry with that fucking bitch!
She made me broke today! Made me broke into tears and also broke her promise!
I am refering to my kanninabuchaocibailajiaokukuthebirdbird sister!

I hope she get her dues soon.
If she is not careful,something will happen.
That bitch! She promised to pay for me my course fee and end up she back out!
Basically, she don't want to give me the money because she asked me to clean or so called like take care of the house or something and i disagree to it because I am going to be busy with school work load.
AND YOU KNOW WHAT!
THE MESS OF THE HOUSE IS 70% BY HER!!!
SHE DOES HER WORK EVERYWHERE AND EXPECT ME TO LIKE CLEAN IT!
FUCK YOUR CIBAI LA YOU FUCKING FLAT CHESTED BITCH!
STUPID SCUMBAG!

I wanted to curse her to die a horrible death. she should be fcuking thank god that she is my sister or else I might have prayed for that wish as well!
What she did to me so far is unbearable!
She is a fucking slow and retarded plus spastic kannina!
She made me wait for her more than an hour for more than 3 times!
She goes back against her words countless of times!
She pissed the hell out of me infinite times!
I fucking HATE her!!

She wants the same treatment I am giving my brother now.
So be it.
I shall not talk to that female dog!

ARGHHH!!!!
WHY IN THE BLUE FUCK IS SHE MY SISTER!!!

sleepy

2008-05-17T02:28:00.001+08:00

I am going to sleep straight right after this.
Going to have to work tomorrow after my belly dancing class.

I am thinking of renting out a room near school whenever common test or exams are approaching. I am not too sure if my parents would approve of it but seriously saying, it will be worth the money.

But I think that they will think that I am too fussy!

And the next thing is they are going to compare me to my older sister who also goes to ngee ann until she graduated this year .... hmmm....

I cannot take the traveling time to and fro my house. Eventhough without jam it is only 30 mins but when it does in the morning, it can take me up to 1 hour!
I just want a house nearby until I get my own vehicle ... if I ever that is.
Anyway. I just want to move in when the exams are nearer so therefore it will be like a week or two stay. Not for months.

Damn. I think it will be a BLOODY good idea if money grows on trees...

kissy

2008-05-16T01:06:00.002+08:00

It seems that I can cry on cue....
My eyes was feeling unbelievably dry and I was too lazy to get Eye-mo out of my cupboard.
So... I just thought of crying and tears just well up in my eyes.
It does not happen everytime though.

Third night in a week I am sleeping REALLY late!
Damnit. How am I suppose to grow like this!
Going to be 3:00AM soon.

I am going to avoid doing last minute work!
I am just left with editing and sound formatting.

CIAO!
Going to wake up early for maths and I am going to continue on my projects in the morning after the Math test.

To the subject : COS and FP.

YOU CRAP SHIT! I DON'T CARE WHAT GRADE I GET ANYMORE FOR YOU!
KISS MY FAT ASS!

eyebags!

2008-05-15T01:55:00.003+08:00

EYE BAGS!!!
The horror!

It's 2:00AM now and I am a quarter away from finishing one of my assignment.
There is still one more to go and a Math to revise.
CA is in 3 weeks time! Scumm!
I am laggin behind MATHS! How in the world am I ever going to catch up!

I swear that if I cannot catch up on my IT modules, I am going to take up on e-business in year two! At the very least, I might be able to skip one lesson on POA since I have learn that in Secondary school and it was supeeeeeer easy!

I MISS MRS LAI AND MR SOH!
The latter is not in school anymore. But Mrs Lai is!
Teacher's Day. I sure am going back! Going to catch up with my secondary school friends.
Sorry - sidetrack since I am talking about POA.

It seems rather factual that I cannot seem to let go of the past that easily. I have been like this since as long as I can remember! As much as I try to like Ngee Ann, I seem to be missing Beatty more. Ahhh... I miss Mr Singh too and Strawberry nose principle - although I still detest them!
Being caught for late coming by Mr Singh - once in 4 years though =)
Getting suspension and punishment by strawberry nose....

Nostalgic days.
Yeah. I got suspended before. I got black record for cheating in final year exam in secondary one. Teacher chased after me numerous time for homework. Screamed at people who sat at my seat in my first two years. Punching and kicking guys - they kick me although that is rare. I almost kick a guy ****. Arguing with a stupid junior in my final year. Cheating during NAFA test. Ogling at good looking guys - although there are non in my school. Got close to a friend after silencing her for 2 years. Running away from teachers who were checking attires. Skip school 2 weeks per semester. Getting highest in major art project only to fail overall. Cursing Huda for always getting highest in malay - hahahahaha!

Well, I just love the last 2 years of my secondary school friend. I believe I have made a lifetime friends from there.

Ahhh. And to make a mental note to myself, Steffi has been so far my only primary school friend that I am keeping in contact - considering the fact that we are not in the same school for soon to be 7 years!

And I think I know who is Cindy Tan.The national archer!
Natoooooooooooooooooooot!
She really in NATIONAL!
CHOW NENE!
Power only nia.
So young and yet in the National! Envy her very much !!!

Goodnight and Bye`

reason denied

2008-05-13T20:01:00.002+08:00

There is absolutely no excuse as to why I never attend today's archery.
And the fact remains that I really want to attend it and so why the MIA?

I OVERSLEPT!!

GAWD! Syuharah, you should pat yourself on the back and congratulate yourself for coming up with the stupidest excuse ever!!! - eventhough it is true. I mean, the training is in the afternoon and so why the hell can I possibly overslept!

Thank it to me sleeping in the wee hours the previous night!! And I wasted SGD17 today taking a cab to school only to realise that class was CANCELLED!! How cool was that huh? Drag my ass home after like hanging out at canteen one for awhile and once I reached home, the bed was calling my name non-stop! And sooo that is how I overslept.

Now. I am wondering why the hell am I explaining this on the blog.
I must be crazy.

Dad bought for me HONEY STARS TODAY =) AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
Alright I am just feeling jovial because my cereal is almost depleting. I should have asked him to buy the milk too.

So anyway. School at 9am tomorrow -____-"
Thursday is 8am. Meeting IP Wang in the morning. Going for archery in the noon. MUST!
Fri is 9am ending at 5pm. 3 projects submission and math test.

Oh and I want to make new resolutions.
I want to be less temperament! I want to be less violent! I want to be less vulgar!
I must reduce my words to bloody, hell and shit. No more hokkien or french vulgars.
I need to take up muay thai or kickboxing so that my anger can be transfered to something else.

Ahhhh something to look forward to this weekend.
Last basic archery lesson and belly dancing class resume!
I am going to treat myself to some MOCHI ICE-CREAM this weekend~

Weeeeeeeeee!
Ahh.... my dad is thinking of cutting my allowance.
whatever uh - for now.

excited

2008-05-12T21:18:00.002+08:00

I cannot contain my excitement anymore!

I have found a great site called Body Candy which sells studs and some of their design are
AHMYGAWD!!
AWESOME!!

The thing why I seldom do online shopping now a days is because of the shipping cost.
And this site offers FREE international shipping with orders above USD20(roundup)
WOW! I am bloody impressed!
Plus the depreciating in the US currency, I get to save more money then ever!

But for now, I have to wait for .... my pay to come in =(
Then I need to shop for new BELLY STUD!!
I have waited a long time to get some. The previous I did it, it was from some other site and my shipping got lost! I think I wasted SGD100-SGD150!!

This time round, I am only buying studs and perhaps bracelet with a budget of SGD50.
I have been contemplating to get a tongue piercing for a while now but I decided to forgo the idea. Reason being, there is no way for me to hide it from my parents and if they ever come to know about it, I am as good as dead!

So yeap. SGD50 for all my studs.

pictures

2008-05-10T21:45:00.014+08:00

WAH!
This is like the first time I have ever uploaded this many pictures!
Thirty minutes have gone by....
I decided to put up some of my other photos though....
Have a good laugh.
I am damn PHOTOGENIC!
Even Tyra bank will have to salute to me =)

Secondaryone.TangTang with specs. Steffi the tied hair. Me - Don't ask stupid question.
.2004.

Sukarto in yellow shirt. Phakathorn in blue, Levia (?) in white. Angel in the middle. Vivid in red. TangTang in blue black. Steffi in red too. The little boy is Vivid's brother and ME!
.2003.

Steffi. Vivid. The very left girl, I cannot remember. Jessica in black and ME!
It was the eve of National Day. I was actually wearing red and white skirt with SCHOOL SHOES!
Walking Fashion Disaster.
.2005.

Stef. ME! Vid.
.2004.
Steffi~ I like your hair in here!

Us again =)
All different school~
Stef in Queenstown. Vivid in Outram. ME in Beatty.
.2004.
I went to have my hair strenghten for the day.
Damn. I look stupid.

Jez the most tan. Tang - no need anymore introduction. Mega the slimmest one.
.2005.
Taken on my Birthday.
It was actually my most memorable thus far.
They were the greatest companion. Sad though.

My older sister in the headscarf. Her indonesian friednd Mira. And me.
Damn that bitch. Hahahahahaha.
.2005.

Weiling and me.
.2006.

Vivid and me.
.2005.
I have alot of pictures with her during that year. Apparently, it was her last year in Singapore for real. God! I miss her!

Nah. My childhood photo. I was a BIG FAT PIG!
Mom say, I was the darkest. And I am still till now among my family members~

PAP!
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
My MOTHER LA CUT THE HAIR!!
I was always mistaken as a boy when I was in my shorts and t-shirt!
Cannot remember what year as I am unable to recall whether I took it in K1 or K2 =/

This was in Secondaryone.
.2004.
Sarkasi Said was like the alumni of my school. Or something like that.

Ahhh... My favourite i-don't-know-what-is-it-called.
.1995.
I was 4 years old back then.
Or was it 1994? Heck la.

Yeahh...
If I have the time, I might upload my Bali, Thailand and Australia photos.
Too many uh. I am super lazy. See how uh.
That's all la. I haven't even completed my Java and also my other project.
Damn la.

Bye. I need to burn the midnight oil.

P/S: I might not be blogging as often for the next coming days. I have COS/FP and WP projects that are up for submission. FSP too and lastly, I have to restudy my maths right from chapter one up till chapter 3 by myself. I am not having tuition anymore therefore the need for me to start catching up with everything.

P/P/S: Damn I am feeling the pressure stuck between my ass! There is just so much to do and it is ONLY 5 modules! What the toooooooooooot!!!
FIVE MODULES AND I AM THIS PRESSURED!
I should just shoot myself and REST IN PEACE.
Bye`

Oh before I go, I calculated how many time I can ponteng one module to get EXACTLY 80% modules. It is 6 times!!! Oh my god! Lucky lucky! I shall make FULL use of it.
Oh IS is only 3 since divide it by half....
Don't get me? Go die la.

infected.

2008-05-10T19:43:00.001+08:00

God! My left eye got infected !!!!

Die!Die!Die!Die!Die!Die!Die!Die!Die!Die!Die!Die!Die!Die!Die!Die!Die!Die!Die!Die!Die!

I don't have my specs!
It dropped somewhere in Bugis last year and it was only a 2 month old specs. My mom told me that that specs was the last she would ever buy for me thus the reason why I am wearing contact lens!
My first time getting infected!

And the pain plus irritation I have to go through with this red eye of mine are enough to make me gorge out this eyeball.

I will update more later. Will be putting up pictures of my old time cos Steffi request for it.
I was so PRETTY la last time!

For real!
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Pretty ugly that is....
Okay la. Till later~

random

2008-05-08T13:31:00.006+08:00

Nah. My new sports bra... (random -__-")

Next year will be a memorable one =) I will officially be 18!! Let me buy - using your money - cigarettes and alcohol for those who can consume them =) And let's watch a M18 movie!! I want to see the people checking my Identity Card and when they realise I have actually turned 18 on that day itself, I will give them the smug look!!! What a bugger. I am still 17. Sheeesh...

And next thing I want to get....
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Yup... I want my bike license!
But these kind of bike cost about 12k!
But I really prefer bike to car!!

If car, I only like Peugeot and Chevrolet.
They are too costly though and like, monthly need to pay about SGD800 including petrol.

Who can afford such thing! I am still a student....

Unless of course my dad wants to sponsor me which will never happen anytime soon....

A bike. Yes. I need to work towards it.

UPDATE!
On a happier sidenote.
Sister bringing me to go shopping!!!
After going to the hospital that is...
I think I want to bring her to a neoprint booth. Been about a year plus since I last done it.
But then again. There is the camera... who needs neoprint.!
Pfffttt....
okay what else. i cannot wait for saturday to come by.
only having archery for the day after that I can hit the bed and dooze off to my lullaby dreamland.

ahhhhh! I am updating everyday.

what in the world am I doing?!

SAM IS EVIL!

2008-05-07T13:17:00.003+08:00

I wanted to post the chat I had with Elizabeth but somehow, I cannot seem to put it up here. Something is just wrong with my computer I guess.

Many say money is the root of ALL evil.
They should include height too!

Look at SAMKOH!
That girl is so tall that she makes fun of PETITE people like me!

Yeah. Being too TALL or too SHORT is bad!
EEEEVVVIIILLLL!!

I am having COS now.
Hell. I am stressing but at the same time having fun doing it. Well Sort of!!
I need to catch up on my studies. Tonight, I am going to study on my Computing Mathematics and the Java thing! Tomorrow there will be a quiz! If I don't get it, I am going to skip the lesson =)

I am starting to like the stress...

And the teachers kept calling my first name ... SITI!
What the hell...
Sound so disgusting.

UPDATE!
Okay. Got myself a new sports bra. Took a picture of it but I am too lazy to post it up.
Ahhhh... To date, I only have 2 surviving sports bra. One is New Balance which I dislike because the design is oh-so-awful! It's 2 years old. Another one is my favourite - Nike Dri-Fit. It has a unique design and it has been with me for 4 years going on 5 years!

Yeah, I take great pride in my bras.
Going to get my Pierre Cardin sooon.
Daddy sponsoring again =)

Oh. And I love LONSDALE!
Oh however you spell it luh. The stuff are nice =)
And they are like.... CHEAP! CHEAP! CHEAP!
Jacket only for SGD80!
I want to pester my sister to buy it for me.
Yeap. I am professional at whining for stuffs.

Tomorrow we are going to stay back for project.
Man I dread project.

bunch of kuku

2008-05-06T20:59:00.004+08:00

Okay I need to vent my anger and frustration and irritation and you get it.

Okay so in archery, there is 2 guys - I will try and not be racist here.
So anyway.

KANNINABUCHAOCIBAI!
LINNAUYA!
I FEEL LIKE SCREWING YOUR COCK AND CHOP IT UP AFTER WHICH I WILL SHOVE IT UP YOUR GUT AND MOUTH!!

ARGGHH!!!

They are fucking IRRITATING! Yeah they did nothing to me but the amount of disrespect that they show, and with their snotty attitude, I feel like shoving an arrow right through their anus! I don't really get angry for a long time. Most of it disappear within time but for this situation, KANNINA!
I even lost my appetite to eat! I think I am eating on my anger thus the reason why I do not feel hungry any longer. But this is the worst I tell you. I haven't got this angry for such a long time. I haven't eat my dinner and supper which is DEFINITELY not a good sign!
I get irritated if I miss any meal!

And how dare they scold some of the other new freshmen!!
What are they?! Captain?!
Hell no!
And what is with that yeah-i-know-it-all attitude?!
God! I really feel like going up to him and kicking him in the groin!
If it wasn't a sin, I might have murdered him on the spot!

And they are such a loud mouth! If they were the enthusiastic kind, I might give it in.
But they have this snotty,snobbish sound in them like as though everybody wants to listen to them! Even their normal conversation among themselves are LOUD!

NOBODY FUCKING WANTS TO HEAR YOUR CONVO YOU DICKHEADS!

God. I don't give a hoot if they are going to be joining the archery in a long run but if they are trying to rule the place as though it is theirs I will be the first to object to it!

Being people's enemy is part of my hobby.
Especially - people like them!

I will update later. Hopefully. If I don't fall asleep while watching my drama.

missing you badly

2008-05-04T20:14:00.004+08:00

Guys! Remember these pictures?!
Yup. Our Friday outing although the last picture was our sunglasses hunting day.

I miss those days!
Maybe. Want to reignite those nights again? Leave out Friday free!
I know. Projects and assignments and all the shitfuckload plus the bloody deadline submission.

But sparing about 3-4 hours on Friday night won't hurt right?
I mean, we can do it fortnightly. Since this week some of you have gone to Sentosa - sorry people!! I am trying to commit to a CCA for once - then we can do it on the 16th May. How does that sound?!

I MISS YOU SHITLOADS ALOT!

We can go and have late night dinners plus movies!
Fish & co. Swensen. Newton. Or maybe a new place that we have yet to venture!
Play Counter Strike! I want to play it again! I think I have not touch that game for like 3-4 months? Can't remember. We can kill cow together!!

Maybe from next year onwards, clubbing will be our next destination!
EH! But don't feed me alcohol ye...
Remember this picture Steff? Vivid's Birthday 2005.

Ahhh.. And Steff. After you move then we meet up?
I don't want to trouble you during those period.

Oh and mom going to kill me. I just ship a limited edition Japanese CD costing me about SGD50 in total! She is so going to bust my ass and debit card!

Getting my pay at the end of this month. (randomness)

Okay this month. I don't think there will be anything fascinating(likealways) except that I might be rejoining the belly dancing class for good on the 17th of May or the 18th whichever that I feel free. Ahhhhh... I want to repierce my top ear again. And maybe another belly ring on the bottom part! I feel like getting a henna tattoo tooo since I cannot get the real thing. And dye my hair to light brown.

Oh and I am going to a belly dancing trial tomorrow with my younger sister.
I need to accompany her. She is paying for me cos I told her I am broke - of course it's a lie!

I am craving for sushi, sashimi, soba noodles, soft shell crab and tempura ice-cream!

Ichiban sushi anyone?
.Pay yourself.
HUEHUEHUEHUEHUE!!

Okay I am crazy. Shutup. Goodnight. Byebye.

jacket

2008-05-03T15:57:00.002+08:00

Stupid throat! damn kannina la!
Cough and cough like it is nobody's business!

Anyway, I had my archery and I like it! Got to talk with the other archery(s) and they are super nice to talk to! i think I might commit myself to this CCA for the first time. Mind you i have joined choir and library before but both only last for a year. Oh and I want to get the JACKET!!!!

Damn shikapoopipoop lor!
The JACKET is super nice! Hope they don't change the design or anything on it.
It's my motivation to join competition and archery.
And we are like going to have camping in June.
Hopefully it is nice like my Secondary 3 camp although I still detest going to camp.

Ahhhh.... And by the way. I am going to join a class something something on 17th of May and some of it may stretch to several days of the weekdays.

Aiyoh I don't know what I am talking about lor.
Later than update. Going to work soon.
Start at 5. Going to off to work at 5.
How cool is that?!

Okay la. now 4:10. I want to sleep for half-hour. then bath then off to work.

unplan plans

2008-05-02T21:19:00.003+08:00

Okay.
My sister's new workplace is organizing a trip to overseas! Either to Bali or Bangkok....
Although I prefer the latter for great shopping - pratunam and platinum shopping mall is the new shit! - I like Bali for it's paradise. Shopping is not that bad but you really must know how to speak their language and bargain!

And okay, it is going to be done when I am having my first semester holiday!!
Just nice nia! If it does happen, my sis is planning to bring me along provided that she pays for everything including 1/4 of my shopping expenses!

I am also having like an unplan plan to go to Bangkok end of this year with my friend.
If that is not going to happen, then I will save the money for my future trip to Boston and San Francisco. If my sister ends up going back to school next year, I will be having companion again cos she will be studying in the wheelock college. Plus - free meals! And she might have the need to go to Boston for like study exchange. I am going to follow her if it's during my break.

Hooooo..... Wah sey. I want to sleep now. Night.

This is just a random post.
Archery tomorrow!!!

weekend is here again!

2008-05-02T15:24:00.004+08:00

Its 3:24pm now.
Damn. I want to go home.
And I saw Sammy wawa just now in school!
And I know who is Greg now! I thought he is an Indian with a name sounding like Muthu!

Damn. I am missing the old Beatty people.
We must have a get together in NgeeAnn one day you know.
All the NgeeAnn Beatty.

There is Sam(DUh!), Huda, Weiling, Melvin, Isabel, Xiong, Widya, Ulfred, Faezah and etcetc.
There are a number of them that I cannot remember now.

Okay. I know it is not possible to like have everyone to gather.
But I want a gathering with atleast ... Sam, Huda, Weiling and Melvin.

Never had with them - except for Huuudy and Ah ling.

Damnnnn.
I want to go home now. And our mentor might release us early =)

Loving it now. Weekend is tomorrow. And archery is here.
My cousin asking me for help so I will only be home at night.
And at night, I will be out for hmmm.... I don't know, after watching my indonesian drama.

Its my first time letting my classmate know my blog.
So welcome people!

I might spam your blog if I am bored =)
You have been told hor!

sickness in my head

2008-05-01T11:12:00.002+08:00

Fucking hell!

I am having a flu, nose block, headache and spine pain.
This is much more worse than I can imagine. Later there will be a family gathering. Bringing my laptop and also my maths textbook there. I need to utilize all the time that I have to complete every of my assignment.

And I have a project that requires me to know the input and output of my computer and how to upgrade it. I am asking my dad to call his friend who expertise in computer to help me out cos I really have to idea what in the blue world it is eventhough we learn it in class countless of times.

I guess, I am not much of a theory person.
Thank god I took up on IT. Because, whatever that I study, I need to apply it right away.

It has been a tough week for me.
And I have a quiz that is due tomorrow. Great.
Oh and 2 major assignment has been assign to us.

Great. I think I am going to be admitted to hospital at least once for over exhaustion if I am not careful.

ewwwww

2008-04-30T13:00:00.002+08:00

God. Today is the first day I felt a total lost.
Okay now is my most hated subject. Better listen to that fart before I end up dying in her hands!

Gah... okay the unshaven armpit women is back. Bye!

missing you guys

2008-04-28T23:56:00.004+08:00

Man. This is the first picture I have taken since school started.
Yeah... I gain like fucking alot of weight.
No reason. I just feel like eating.

Hmmm. I am missing my friends!
Especially Steffi.
Its been like a bloody hell long time since I last seen her. I think the last was last year around July? Yeah it has been that long.
And there is my secondary school friends.
I am missing you bloody mofo bunch!

Okay. School? I had my first lunch with my friends on Friday. And I am the only girl. I kinda brave myself to it because I wanted to try and bond or something. I think my friends somehow respected my decision to let me eat by myself.

Man I am such an asshole for being an anti social. And I have yet to complete my assignment for tomorrow. Waking up tomorrow at 5am in the morning to complete the assignment.

My eyebags are developing. First time and it is getting more apparent. Going to stayback on Wednesday for some group project that needs submisson on Friday.

.I miss working.

future

2008-04-27T19:14:00.003+08:00

Somebody asked me,
"What is your future plans? What do you want to be?"

Those questions strike me and I went blur!
Although I have thoughts and dreams of studying overseas but my parents - I don't want to trouble them in their current age. Furthermore, my sister might be going back to Ngee Ann to take up a degree in the Wheelock College.

And my future remains unclear.

Yeah... I want to study overseas. I really want to but most likely, I have to work after school ends. My mom mention that once we enter University, it is our responsibility. They will leave the fees and everything to our own responsible.

I wonder how. I still have about less then 3 years more to think about my uncertain future.
Where I want to continue my further studies?
Japan, UK or USA.
Australia? Not a minute.

But the cost - that is the problem. Either that or I can continue my studies in local universities which will be bloody challenging. For now, I just have to study hard for my current studies.

the rest, I shall leave it to fate.

thank you friend. for making me think about my future once again.

yogayogayoga

2008-04-25T19:28:00.002+08:00

Hmmm, I have been VERY busy!

I have classes after school. I have to work. And lastly, the curfew - which will be gone by tomorrow.

I shall reveal what I have been doing. It is Bikram Yoga.
I have to do it every single day. I am addicted to it. But now, damn. I miss it for 2 days and I am feeling very worn! When you do it, it feels rather refreshing.

Anyway, I won't be joining it until for another 3 months? I need to work for the money cos it cost like 200++ per month. It's fucking costly and damn, my dad will strangle if I ever mention it.

Going to ship the book from USA if I cannot find it at Kinokuniya or Borders tomorrow.
Going to make do with it without the heater. Hope Singapore won't rain so often.

Okay I am going off to do another form of Yoga. Hatha this time. I don't really like it though.

Sian~

early eading

2008-04-24T15:29:00.002+08:00

Class end early today. Because we did all that are needed.
Classmates are playing counter strike from just now. Man.... I want mine to be downloaded.

Then I can play with people from other block =)
Going off for another session now.

Well soon. After I am done with the practice for tomorrow's performance.

Dang.... I am so lazy to do that. I just want to sleeep....

stupid cos

2008-04-23T13:13:00.002+08:00

God!
Another 3 hours of COS! It is not the worst subject. Infact it is easy and interesting because you are learning about the computer parts. Like the course name Computers and Operating System.

The mentor is the oh god!
She is like giving me sleeping pill la.
I have to keep drowning myself with gallons of water and thank god I bought some sweets =)

But I have to stop consuming them at 3.

shit.concentrate. concentrate.

byebye.

lesson on

2008-04-23T10:37:00.002+08:00

WP now.
Making groups. Wahh.... I feel so malas sey.

I really want to sleep truthfully saying.
Cannot wait for 6 0'clock to strike. And I will be in that HOT room again.

And when I say hot... there is meanings to it.
And I am more flexible you know.

My Web Publishing mentor is sooo hyper!!
But I still have the drowsing effect. Mainly because I slept late yesterday.
But tonight, I am going to sleep early. I have plans to sleep at 11:30pm sharp.

Learning about HTML now. Not going to be easy so I better concentrate. Bye~

morning sickness

2008-04-22T23:01:00.003+08:00

Some people are asking me what in the fuck world am I doing early in the morning out of the house!? Yeah, getting out of this place at 5:30am in the morning sounds very much ridiculous and out of this world.

But then... I really have something on and I am really enjoying the sessions although I am trying to fit it into my evening time slot so that I won't have to wake up at 4:00am in the morning just to prepare myself! I will reveal everything when I am going to end my session which is very soon ....

Man. I feel sad for leaving that place. I am enjoying it now actually. Got praises and all. But the place is expensive as hell! My dad told me to dig my grave if I ever think of joining. But, I still am by the way only that it might be next year? Maybe, I will just cancel my plan about going to Thailand at the end of this year just for the course.

A hint : It's very hot.

Ahhh... and I am going for a Belly Dancing trial this coming Monday with my younger sister =)
It only cost SGD5. I did not want to initially but decided to join just to accompany her.

And I am going to have my basic archery course this coming saturday. Really cannot wait!
And I have asked my dad for SGD40 for it. He is giving it =) New sports bra this weekend =)

starting

2008-04-21T09:25:00.002+08:00

First week and still a briefing....
When oh when are we going to start on our real lesson....
God. We need to buy books I think.... okay my mistake.... its not a must.

Starting on topic now. Bye.

daddy - my hero

2008-04-20T11:26:00.004+08:00

I know that I am going to sound like a damn spoilt brat.

I just asked my dad for a hell lot of stuffs.
Sending me to Raffles Link. Asking him to buy for me those Nike and Adidas sports bra that I am aiming. Then there is the train concession that I don't really need. I asked him to get me one just because I have to get out of the house at 5:30am on 3 days this week to get to a class that I am going to sign up this afternoon.

And he just oblige to my request.
Man, I shan't be mean to my dad anymore! He is like the kindest dad one can ever get!
I am a daddy's girl. My mom is more on the discipline =/
Almost anything that I need, my dad will just fork out for me without much questioning.
And I told him that if I get my driving license, to get me a car.

He told me to wait. This time he has to discuss with my mom....

Well, but you see, that is good enough for me. Atleast he care to think about it.

Yeah, there are times that he likes to break promises and that what pisses me off most of the time but now I got to understand that he is not as young as he used to be. Me and my dad has a 30 years age gap. But it does not seem that apparent.
Firstly, he got a young look! So does my mom.
And secondly, he is not narrow minded. Okay - to a certain extent. But he does try to understand me.

You know, the trouble I got in school thus far - well, he never scolded me about it at all! He just said

"I just hope you know what you have done and to not repeat it. You can make more mistake and trouble but not the same one since you enjoy learning it the hard way"

Those words stuck to me like super glue. It is interesting. And whatever course I want to join, be it engineering or even film,media studies - although he has his doubt about the latter ones - he supports me without any condition.

Well, he only has problem with how I spent my money like for example, my job salaries. I spent all of it on traveling. KL - countless of time, Melbourne, Bali and Bangkok. It is pretty a lot for a short span of just 4 months!

Hmmm, I love my dad. More than that stupid fucking brother of mine. He is just a useless pit who owes everbody without a care to pay back. I hope he gets his dues soon. I am just so sick at looking at his face. And his girlfriend. 3 years older. Not a v anymore and smokes as though that is her oxygen.

Everything change.
My dad is getting on better in life. My brother is getting worst as time pass by.

I hope he don't come and look for me when he is in a grave pit.
And I hope my dad can retire soon.... =)
He has the money, but he just feel like working will he is 65 I think.

My dad is my latest hero.

frantic day

2008-04-19T23:36:00.004+08:00

ALRIGHT!

I really like archery. Like for real.
I have never felt so happy for joining a CCA before!

And yes - I am aiming for the jacket! Damn. I need to join a lot of competition but hell who cares. I really like the CCA. So no lost on my part except for the vigorous training - I think. And I really want to win the competition that I am joining.

I went to my belly dancing studio today. Wanted to start all over again but I decided that since school has officially begun, it is best not to put anything fixed into my schedule until perhaps 2 weeks after today whereby everything will be more stable.

I am going to work on Monday and Tuesday. Both afternoon session and I am perhaps ending both at .... 8:30pm? I have the choice of what time to go home. So no lost. I have to go home by then because I need to catch on my Indonesian drama at 9:00pm. Yess ... Yess... My another obsession. Deal with it.

Then... I have to start sleeping in early. I must try to start bunking in by 12:30AM latest. It will be tough for me if I keep my current lifestyle.

The only day I can sleep late is Friday, Saturday and Monday because on Tuesday, I will be starting school at 10:00AM and end at 12 noon. I can just go home and snug in my bed after lesson.

And I will be having my basic archery course soon... Cannot wait for it.

Oh yes. I need to buy those stuff to protect your finger. I only shot about less then 15 arrows and my finger hurts like fuck! OhOh! And stupid sports bra!! I need to find my nike!

Ahhh..... BRA!!! I want my nike sports bra back damn it!

school blues

2008-04-18T10:12:00.003+08:00

So yesterday I wasn't really in a good mood.

I got lost when the teacher explain about excel.
And in total, I have about 3 assignments to pass up by today which thankfully, I have completed it by 2am and I only slept for a freaking 5 hours before having to wake up once again and attend school.

And I have to specially thank HUDA for her idea!
It totally inspired me on how to design my powerpoint.
You see, as easy as the assignment may sound, which is to make a presentation about yourself, I will have a fucking problem with it still if I do not have a theme as a background.

So Huda, trying to help me just mention the word black & white.
Ideas did not hit me suddenly but I slowly tried to think hard on what I could do with black and white. And yeah .... it hit me when I reached that my name sounds like "SHOE" and that I have to do some slides on school too which equates to children wearing school shoe.

So yeah. My slides are full of BLACK AND WHITE PLUS SHOE!
There are colours too. On my hobbies and interest section whereby everything is coloured =)

I am really proud of my work. And Huda thank you for your idea.

Aslam too for the beatty picture. It was tough searching for one.

After today, I am going to go home and just lay flat on the bed. Mind you I sacrifice my indonesian seinetron for the project working from 8pm to 2am none-stop even for a break.

The ICT students are going to have performance coming up on the 25th of April and I think I am a part of it too. Tough. I think only the Infocomm newbies have different timetable fo the first week. The rest of the school seem to tbe following their real timetable diligently.

By the way. You know what. I woke up at 8am for nothing!
Apparently the teacher reported sick and there were no replacement. And we were only informed about it at 10am.

How cool is that?
So efficient.

2nd day

2008-04-15T23:44:00.002+08:00

Hmmm... so how was today?

Many are asking me the same question because yesterday was a totally awkward day.

Today is perfectly fine because I only have school for 2 hours =)
It is IS day therefore only one lesson is conducted within a time span of 2 hours.
Tomorrow, I will end at around 4.
Damn. I hate late hours. Those are my nap time and I have to have those if I want to survive the morning hours and also to stay through the night till 2 am to watch whatever drama that are updated.

I know. I should be stopping that.
But it is the only time for me to chill and let my mind wonder....

If I have a major project coming up or an exam, I will put a break to it 1 week before it commence. By the way. Did you know ..... okay I forgot what I want to say.

School tomorrow at 9. My life just cannot get any better.
Incase you didn't notice, it was meant to be sarcastic.

first day.

2008-04-14T23:03:00.003+08:00

I saw my seniors today.
Or are they who you call mentor?

Anyway, the girl is pretty and the boy has a very you know - those entertaining kind of look that will never fail to make the class laugh. Anyway, I think I can live through this course. I am going to be the fucking guai kia that will not get into trouble no more.

I have experiment everything in secondary school.
Detention, Suspension and a conduct record full of bruises.
All I did not try was expel - that would mean grave for me.

So yeap.
I only have one thing in mind and that is to get god damn great marks.
Although that will mean to blow away everything extravagant like going shopping in the name of studying. Such sacrifice is rare in my life and I hope it will last.

I got to bath!!
What the hell! I slept in my sweating+raining clothes!

By the way, believe it or not, I still could not remember my friends name except for Jessica, Jolene, Alvin and Calvin. Other than that, well .... I know the Indonesian guy name is like .... Hariyono or something. The rest, it will take me sometime to remember.

I need to start work on my damn brain. I have a freaking lousy memory

huge school!!!

2008-04-14T12:42:00.003+08:00

Here I am in school.
Alone.
Waiting for weiling to come over to fetch me.

I got VERY lost on the first day of school.
And my sister aint helping me at all. So much for graduating. She don't even know when in the blue hell my block is in!!
What she have been doing in school thus far is still a mystery.

I entered the lecture theater with sweats drenching my clothes and skin.
I am damn hell going home later to have a good long bath.
This is the problem when you do not have a friend in the same course as you.
Sam said a guy by the name of Greg is in the same course as me and her description:
"Okay anyways greg is this really tall guy"

Thank you sam. That really helps me a lot on who Greg is.
I am still waiting for Ah Ling to fetch me.Damn thirsty. My bottle is at home. I forgotten to bring it over. Got to make new friends. Super friendly la. But I am the trouble la. I don't really talk much on first meeting.

And now, I really don't know where I am suppose to head to after this.
Should have just left home or stayed there. If they ask me anything, I just say, I got lost for a whole 6 hours and I just locate the building but it was over.

This whole week, the timetable is very different. Because of not attending the stupid orientation. Now nobody in my class are online. Damn it.

I don't like school!!
Friends are okay but not the school...
Can't they just be the same size as Beatty?!
It will be much more easier for life.
And mind you, some student took their motorbike to drive from one end to the other for lunch.
Supposingly the other side of the building have nicer food to savour.

This school has alot of funny character.
Too funny for my taste.

school starting

2008-04-13T15:29:00.002+08:00

School is starting tomorrow.
And I am having a half-ass feeling about attending it.

Damn. I really dislike the moment school is about to commence.
Nothing can beat the time I have during my Primary six and Secondary 4 years.
Maybe, just maybe I will be able to enjoy myself on my third year of polytechnic life.

Which is another 2 years from now. That is way too long for me -___-"

I need to buy a new pair of sneakers. After 2 weeks, I will assign certain days for me to wear my heels. I shan't let my heels rot at home just because I will be pro-active in school soon - I hope.

Damn. school is such a chore.

stupid tits

2008-04-11T20:42:00.002+08:00

The first place that I want to lose fat is my ....... breast!!
They are a humongous beast that just obstruct my life. Currently, I am surfing YouTube to search for a way to lose breast fat through exercising. I know this sound very vulgar and if you think I am showing off about me having a humongous tits then you are so wrong.

I have been having trouble with big tits as long as I can remember. They are a hassle. Troubling me to find a perfect fit clothes. My bra will not fit my breast after 3 months of wearing it cos they are constantly growing. Hell yeah I am pissed off.

I have to buy new bras every 3 month for nothing! Waste my money on support when I think I could have save it up and go for a reduction.

Damn. I really hate huge breast. If it were a normal decent cup, I don't mind.

But a C cup - it's just too much.
I am going on to D soon if I am not careful.
Therefore.

FIGHT BREAST FATS!!

to hell la

2008-04-11T08:42:00.002+08:00

To hell la with the stupid compulsory orientation!
I know I will miss out a hell lot of things. Like making new friends instantly.... but damn.

I just hate orientation and the stupid games. So maybe when school reopen, I will hurriedly huddle up a few friends. I shall try to be open. I am lying to my family that it is not a compulsory orientation - it's my mistake.

Damn. I am going to be crushed if they call my house.
Nevermind. I shall switch the home phone on. hehehehehehehe.

So if you happen to call in the morning, please call my handphone instead. I am reachable only through that damn portable thing.

Now.... where the hell did I put my damn phone.....

shortlive happiness

2008-04-10T02:14:00.003+08:00

School is starting soon.
Real soon.
I have orientation to go which I am now unsure of whether to attend it or not.
The word compulsory is not a problem for me.

You know, now I am starting to miss my secondary school life. The fun we had. All the backstabbing and how we made up at the end of the day. The laughter that was often heard and of course, the bargaining we have with our teachers.

It was really memorable.
4E4. The lazy class. The violent class. The clown class.

We are everything that 4E1 are not.

But we had the fun and the joy out of everything we do. I really do miss the class. The familiar faces. The stupid faces and the cow face.

I know very well that I have to move on. Huda did that very well in fact.
But then, making friends was never my forte. I suck at it.

God. How am I going to survive. I have no one in the same course as me. That is the one thing that I dread the most. At least if I have someone that I know, my life will be a little bit more easier.

Man. I am missing all my old days.
The numerous number of boys that I had crush on.
The number of people I punch and kick them.
The number of people that made my bloody boil.

I just miss my old life. It was perfect the way it was.
But life just had it's way of shortening happiness.

need backup

2008-04-09T18:57:00.004+08:00

I need to have a talk with my dad soon.

I have already like check out websites on language studies in Beijing. I know the plan is still so vague. I need roughly SGD5000 to go there. Basically it is to cover my accommodation and school fees. Going there to study, not for shopping.

The plan is to go there in 2010.
I can get half of the money by then. I want my parents to support the other half of it.
Its for the future benefit. Not for my greed.

I am so lazy to blog. I have alot to complain but little words to explain my desire. How I wish there is one word that could explain the simplicity of it.

bangkok

2008-04-09T13:17:00.002+08:00

Well. No pictures from the Bangkok trip.
I did not bring my camera at all as I had forgotten about it when I was on my way to the airport. But I will try to get it extracted from my cousin's camera.

To say it simply. The trip was a kick ass.!
Shopping was super awesome! Only that I have bad encounter with this one girl - my colleague.
Treating me like a camera girl just because I dislike taking photos. Damn.
And she always fuss about getting her stuffs. Like what the fuck!
She completed her lists while as for me, I only completed my T-shirt section.

I did not get the shoes that I want. The dresses that I desire is completely out. I had none. I only bought T-shirts and no bottoms! Be it jeans or skirt! Man. This has got to be the first overseas shopping that I have ever gone to without buying any bottom! Ridiculous.

I will be going to Thailand again for sure. The people are nice. But there are some vendors owner who just gave us a fucking shit attitude that I felt like slapping their face with the plastic bags that I was carrying. From the first experience, I only go to the vendors if he/she has a friendly face.

Floating market was super! I only bought one bag of wallets from there. The price are an ultimate ripoff. My cousins and colleague bought a hell lot of stuffs from there only to find that they sell it at a much cheaper price in pratunam and chatuchak. I knew that fact therefore it prevented me from buying the stuffs there.

Its not my fault that they spent a bomb there and got rip for their money. I told them a gazillion time that street markets sell at a cheaper price but did they listen to me?

Nope.

All in all I saved myself a bomb. I end up with the most money reason being

I know where to get cheap stuff.
I did not get all of my stuff.

I did the best I could to help them save money. But sorry. If my concern goes unheard off, I don't find the need to voice it out again.

I almost died when a friend of mine questioned me about Islam. I mean. I am not that pious. Neither am I that wild. But basically, for me I thought knowing what is right and what is wrong is enough. How wrong was I.

I can end up being a fried pork if people question me anything about Islam outside the context about what is allowed and what is not. I don't really know the reason behind them too!

How naive can I get about these kind of stuffs?

I am a little ashame to be called a muslim.

Okay must go pray. Bye.

so unspoilt

2008-04-03T14:01:00.002+08:00

One more day to Bangkok.
I have yet to pack ... As always.

Time table will only be out on the 12th of April.
And I have a compulsory orientation on the 11th which I am fucking lazy to attend to.
Damn, there is a high possibility that I will skip it .... my speciality.

Working today at 3 but I am going there at 4
Currently watching Hello! Miss.
First korean drama that I am watching in full without forwarding anything more than 10 minutes.

I am changing SGD600 in Singapore first. Hope it's enough.Dad going to wire transfer me the money if it is not enough.

By the way. I am not spoilt.

off to bangkok

2008-03-29T02:18:00.002+08:00

One more week and I am going to THAILAND!

I know. No biggie. It is just another asian country.
But considering the fact that I have been in and out of the country since my trip from Australia, it is a big deal for me on how I could manage all these despite my meager salary!

Within a short 3 months,
I have been to Melbourne, Bali, Kuala Lumpur and soon to be Bangkok.
Was hopping for Hong Kong too but .... I guess, Bangkok is more for teenagers like me.

4 days. Bringing with me about SGD700.
Another SGD300 as spare. Going to shop like a crazy moronic bitch!

Chatuchak, Pratunam, MaBoonKrong, Platinum, Victoria Monument, Memorial Bridge, Floating Market and Hard Rock Cafe.
Been to there but the thing is .... that was ages ago! It was when shopping has yet to appeal me and mummy was holding tight onto my bank account.

Now with my own, I can do whatever I want.

Oh and did I mention that my dad is giving me some buckaroos too?

Hehehehehe.....

Happy girl.

2008-03-27T17:10:00.003+08:00

I am saving right after my trip from *ehem*ehem*

I need to save at least SGD15000.
I want to do what nobody else in my family have ever done which is to go to a country to learn a language. Intensive one that is for 2 months.

Currently not too sure whether it will be in Japan or China to study either Japanese or Chinese.

I will see whichever that I could afford. Chinese is better to be studied in Singapore because we are you know... Good enough? And anyway, I do not want to acquire their accent which is kinda heavy for me.

Going to Kuala Lumpur this saturday night.
It was an impromptu decision. Staying for 4 days.
After that 2 days in Singapore and I am off again. Staying for 4 days again.
After that 2 days in Singapore again and I MIGHT go off again. Which means I might be skipping the so-called compulsory orientation.

Will only be staying still in Singapore on 13th Night.
Man. I should search for a job that requires me to fly out of country often.

I will be the happiest girl alive.

i hate you

2008-03-23T23:08:00.003+08:00

I have let my anger be known.
I have let my hatred be known.

I sms my brother this

"Damn you! I hate you for this!"

And I won't retort back. I think for him right now, losing me is just a simple option. I know they say that blood is stronger than anything but until he does something to soothe me, I will never ever forgive that shit head!

He prefer his girlfriend and friends now. I still prefer my family more than anything else.

I will never give in even if he have money problem. And I will take as much of his money as I like. I really hate him. I hope he reads my blog. So that he will know how much hatred I have for him. It is damn painful but I really do hate him.

Man, I am always crying when I think of him and the past. We used to be the best of friends but time changes us. We will sllep in the same room and crack jokes in the middle of the night. I can tell any jokes within hurting him but now, I feel like I don't know.

Somehow, I don't feel like his sister anymore. I feel like a stranger.

I really hate my brother.

But it's all right. I still have my sisters to replace him.
That pathetic ass.
I have already replace him with my cousin who use tobe my tutor.

dramamama

2008-03-22T12:01:00.003+08:00

I am currently watching
"Fated to Love you"

Man... Although it is only the first episode but I find the sypnosis really good - like all other drama -___-" Somehow they have the same plot but, I just seem to like it. And I cannot wait for the continuation of the story.

Currently into
- It started with a kiss: They kiss again : A tad boring though. XiangQin becoming more stupid and naive day by day which is getting pretty tiring. But the most anticipating part is when ZhiShu become jealous!

- Fated to Love you: Nice nice nice. Typical drama but I like so shut up.

- One Pound Gospel: Real funny comedy drama. About a glutton boxer who falls for a nun. And guess what?! The nun has feeling for him too!!

- Mean Girl Ah Chu: Have yet to watch cos I am in my cousin's house. So I don't really feel good hogging their computer as it is a well known fact that I can sit through 8 hours infront of the computer watching drama non stop.

2 more weeks and I am out of Singapore again!
In fact next week I will be out for ... 2 days? Either Monday or Thursday.

I am really anticipating my disappearance.

Btw. I have SO many pictures to post up. My australia. My bali. My KL. and whatsoever nonsense. But I am just tooo lazy to put it up in blogger and post a short summaries about what happened in the pictures and the shitsnits.

Bye la.

surprise trip

2008-03-18T00:45:00.002+08:00

Okay. I know this may seem way too early!

But I really need to do the planning waaaay before the day comes to light.
Next year, my cousin will be hitting her 31st birthday which is on July the 27th.
This year will be the big 3o but then I am cash strap!

So alright. I planned to do it next year and book everything during the Natas fair.
I am planning on a trip to .... Hong Kong!
I will only pay for her flight and accommodation. Plus a surprise birthday cake on her birthday.
I definitely cannot support her shopping. She can be as crazy as me!

Apparently, her birthday falls on the non-peak period.

Oh my god! I forgot I have school!
Okay her birthday falls on Monday next year. Maybe! Just maybe, I will skip 2 days worth of school. Or I fly on Friday evening and return on Tuesday morning?

I don't know. I just have to do something.
If not. I will plan a trip to Kuala Lumpur? Stay in a posh hotel but she must drive la ....
Me no driving license sia. But I pay for the petrol and the eating expenses....
I don't know. I will make a slow planning this year.

Yeah. The Thailand trip is going on smoothly. Mom knows about it and can do nothing cos I have already booked it. Working my ass now to get money for the trip.

Owe mom: SGD600
Owe Granny: SGD500
Owe Cousin: SGD150

Thailand trip total expenses: SGD600

Mom - will be paying her SGD150 per/month. 4 months out.
Granny - will be paying her SGD250 per/month. 2 months out.
Cousin - will pay her one shot.

Thailand trip - will beg daddy =)

Hmmmmm..... getting my laptop tomorrow. Going to be one lousy and cheapskate brand. I told my mom to just upgrade my current one but she said to just get a new one altogether.

Pink promise with her : excel in studies and do her proud.

excel in studies - possible but not that really great marks la. I got the feeling that I will need to put in a lot of effort for this course. It's going to be tough. May be interested in technology but what I am venturing into is not something that I can thoroughly comprehend. Furthermore I have alot to catch up.

Do we have to buy books?

letting off some anger

2008-03-16T23:52:00.004+08:00

You know. This fucking fact disgusts me.

How dare my brother forgets my birthday!
How shame of him to be called my brother! I have never ever in my life felt so disappointed about someone when they forgets about my birthday! It is like, he used to be my best friend. The only person that will understand me and will do everything together. But since the appearance of a new women in his life, everything changed. I doubt he even know that I am starting school soon. or that I am going away again for another 4 days.

I will hate him for this.
I have never forgotten about his birthday. I may not have given him presents that often but I have never forgotten me.

Is 6th of February that hard to remember?!
I don't think so! I even remember my cousins birthdays!!
I am nothing in his eyes right now because of a new person that has entered his life.

And I am hating every single moment of it.
____________________________________________

You know. Some people are just a pussy two-fucked-face.

When they first came to know about my pierced-belly, they will just assume I am a wild girl who fucked around strangers and club the night away with booze stuck to my throat. Fuckers.

They say this to my cousin
"Eh! Don't think that cousin of yours as an angel. She just did something bad"

Oh. So piercing means there's a larger hole down my vagina?

For fuck sake.

The hole is on my belly!
I pierced it because I like it and I still do.
I like showing off my pierced belly while wearing bikini - although not too often.

And hello! Speaking of me being wild, what about you?! Staying in a HOTEL with a guy with raging testerone! Need I remind you that it was not once? And that you have more than one boyfriend at a shot?!

And while we are on the topic of looking wild, look who dyed her hair golden looking like a sick ah lian! And what about those 8 ear holes and counting!? And what about you, who want to pierce the eyebrow?

At least mine, it is not really seen in the public eyes unless in my bikini.

And who are you to judge me and say that I am wild!?
Rebellious - yes. I cheated. I stole. I played truant. I got suspension.

But wild? That is far from my dictionary.
I don't sleep around. I don't drink. I don't really club. I don't smoke.

While you are everything of that.

So pussy face. Check the up the dictionary and read up on the meaning of wild.

It means YOU.

moneymoneymoney...MONEY!!

2008-03-11T01:25:00.003+08:00

I am in my cousin's house.
My favorite cousin since young. Because I always stayed at their home very much often during my childhood days. I remembered smearing my auntie's lipstick in secret thinking it makes my lips look plumper - or however you say it. And parading around with their high heels.

I might not post up any soon. I don't know. Going to be in Kuala Lumpur for awhile before coming back this Sunday. And then I have to resume with my heavy schedule of registering for tertiary school and also with work. My cousin gave me off day tomorrow therefore when I comeback from holiday, I have to work full for the next 14 days!

My Indonesian drama =(

Never mind more money for shopping.

School is starting and therefore, more reason for me to shop.
Although I sucked at dressing up, but I will try my best to look atleast a little presentable.
It's the least I can do.

I like fashion but somehow dressing myself up for the kind of fashion that I like is a whole different thing altogether. It's very troublesome and full of work....

Oh and I am only retiring from work on 11th of April.

3 days before school commence.
For the sake of money, I will make do with little time for school preparation.

just the old days

2008-03-10T15:46:00.002+08:00

I had no idea how stupid and childish and idiotic I sound like in my old xanga blog.

Until, aslam went and quote something out of it and I started reading it all over again.

Man. I am utterly embarrassed with myself. I mean... Motherly instinct? I have yet to start working full time! It now sound more of stupid instinct!

Gosh. I really sound like a real nincompoop in those time of my year. Thinking that being all grown up and mature is the real deal.

Now I am enjoying myself as it is. I am very happy with what I have right now. The job. The friends and how close I had gotten with my cousin over the time. When I get back I will post up pictures of my purchase. I am really good at bargaining you know if I can speak their language!